So this morning I just had an argument with my mother. I know, it was my fault starting it and I was being a ignorant person again and pissed her off. I had made my mom angry so constantly and frequently that she obviously had ENOUGH. I can tell. And she got really mad and out of control and said some really nasty and disgusting stuff. It's more nasty than you can imagine. I am a 17 year old guy, almost 18. that is a little bit shy and what you call flamboyant but it's only my personality and she made fun of me and called me a word which basically is a serious insult about someone that looks like a tranny. That disgusted me to the guts. And that was not all. I thought I am done with her. My mom loved me so much and everyone knew that but it was not the mom I know. It was not. She was trying to say stuff to hurt me as bad as she can and that's not my mom. I don't know who this is. I know it was my fault, also being a 17 year old I should be mature and not make my mother angry but what she did was... I don't even know what to say. And the funny thing is she's probably still mad at me. Since my apartment is a pretty high end apartment and they've got this computer room that you can use so I stayed here for the entire day from 10:30 AM til now(2:30 AM, 16 hours lol) all I ate was 2 cookies. I don't feel like sleeping because there is no way I'm going back to the same room with her. Guys, what should I do? how would you feel in this situation? This is the most horrible day of my life and I cannot think right now. I am so overwhelmed and sad. Having flashbacks of how my mom was so sweet to me, and what happened today... I can't process it. I'd rather sleep in this computer room than going back home and be with her. So you can imagine how I feel. I just don't know what to think and I feel so horrible. How can any mother say something like that to her OWN child? how? I'm so tired of sitting here and be like this but I have no choice. I know she wouldn't care if I didn't even come home for an entire day because she always knew I would apologize first. Not this time. It's just when you think about it it's sad. I don't know if I plan on ever forgiving her. I'm feeling worse every second. I just don't know why my life is like this. Who goes through stuff like this? I just can't believe me that's the same mom I used to have. Oh believe I didn't even tell you the whole thing she said to me, and what I told you is not even the whole story, just a phrase taken directly from her. People with weak hearts probably would've killed themselves. I have almost starved to death by eating only 2 cookies and I survived it. I LOVE eating and I always apologize to my mom first because it's always my fault, but not this time. I'll starve, I'll not sleep. I don't want to be in the same room with her, or even see her face. I am DONE. It's 3 AM now and she doesn't even check on me at all. Lols. I don't think anyone can understand how serious this is. And what I went through and felt today. Normal kids with a normal life would be happily with their mom, living a normal weekend life, eating at home and sleeping by now. Apparently that's not me. Lol. Normally I would be drifting off to sleep by this time, but not today. I'm not even thinking, feeling anything. It's like I'm a numb emotionless robot. I just need someone to counsel me and tell me what I should do and what you think of this situation, and what would you do? thank you so much! I cannot keep it all to myself, I had to talk it out. All my life my mom was the only one that cared about me and loved me so much with all her heart, this is not her today. It was not. I'm sorry mom, I can't forgive you.