I've always believed. I read the Bible. I pray. But why is this happening? I've seen God moved in my life. A lot of times. Whenever bad times would come, I have faith that he would help get over it. Whenever I feel anxious, I would pray and it will be gone. But now, it's different. I don't know what kind of test is this. I just want to get over this and get back to track. Why is God doing this? I lost my job. My friends who promised to help me, abandoned me. I said, I still have God I will be able to move on. But 2 months have passed. I have been praying for a job, so I could pay my debts and this rent that has been overdue for months. My landlord has been pestering me, even after I have said that I'm doing my best to pay him. Today, I went to the people in the a small church I found where I live. I tried asking if they could lend me money but all of them are in the same situation as me. Nothing to lend. I asked a friend who lives in a faraway town if I could live with her for a while, but she showed signs that she doesn't like it. I understand anyway, she's married. I don't understand. What else should I do. Why did God let it up to this point? God said he doesn't forsake his people. But that's what I feel now. I don't want to doubt my Lord. I don't know what to do. I have nowhere to go. Who should I go ask for help? I only had God, but now I don't know.... I have been asking for help, no one came to rescue. My faith is dying. I don't want to not believe.