God is raising you up for something. No matter your past if you are a saved Holy Spirit baptized Christian then you are a front line soldier of the cross raised up by Jesus to serve your brothers and sisters.
There was never a more disorganized, unqualified group than the original disciples. But after the Holy Spirit came on the day of Pentecost that all changed. It is the mighty Holy Spirit that equips and empowers you to serve. To be sent out to those in need.
It doesn't have to be to Africa or the far east. There are dying souls at the nearest Walmart. Your family has members that are unsaved, sick, in broken marriages, jobless, suffering from addictions.
Proverbs 17:24 KJVS
Wisdom is before him that hath understanding; but the eyes of a fool are in the ends of the earth.
Our ministry is right in front of us we needn't look beyond the mountains. Prepare yourself with prayer, praise and continual study of the word. The Lord will see to it that you get to the needy or they get to you.
I pray you see that those least qualified in the eyes of the world are perfect for the work in God's sight. He will send you.
For consider your calling, brothers: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth. But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption,
1 Corinthians 1:26-30 ESV