myscarsareHis
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- Joined
- Nov 29, 2008
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- 5
i’d just like to introduce myself to all of you, as this seems like an amazing website, and i can’t wait to meet a lot of great people who share my faith and love for Jesus. my name is Alison, i am sixteen, and i was born again on november 22, 2007, the night that my broken past was healed and redeemed. my past is filled with cutting, depression, anxiety, homosexuality and suicide (a near-death experience), and if God hadn’t intervened on march 28, 2007, with a small miracle that saved my life after i attempted suicide at the age of fourteen, i would literally be in Hell right now. after spending four months in my third psychiatric hospitalization, just a few months later, i was introduced to Jesus by a young man over the Internet – i was raised Catholic, and i have always been extremely religious – unnaturally religious, especially as a young child, especially at the age of eleven – except for the three years that i endured extreme suffering and pain physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. i was incredibly self-destructive, selfish and broken, and had been diagnosed with severe major depression, severe anxiety, dysmythia, social phobia and traits of borderline personality disorder. all of this is now gone, healed and redeemed in the precious Blood of Jesus. i will never forget the night that i fell to my knees, sobbing hysterically, and invited Him into my heart and life forever – i will never forget the healing and redemption and forgiveness that took place, and the incredible feeling of love and warmth that washed over me in that incredible moment. i had destroyed myself to the point that i thought i was beyond redemption, too worthless to be loved, but that night Satan lost his hold on my life and Jesus has been my Everything ever since.
i love reading, writing poetry and prose and drawing and painting, so expect a lot of writing from me. i write a lot about my past with religious overtones about how i’ve been saved and healed, and i hope and pray that my writing will inspire and touch many of you. i feel that God is calling me to do something with my writing to help others, and i’ve already been sharing my writing as a tool to witness to the people around me who need Him. my spiritual life at the moment is rather confused, but hopeful – for the past year i have considered myself a nondenominational evangelical Christian, yet i feel that the Holy Spirit is leading me back to Catholicism, and so i am returning to my old beliefs, yet i have a lot of questions and issues that i tend to talk to my pastor about. i would really appreciate your thoughts and prayers, if you would mind praying that i find the Truth and that i am able to diligently pursue it with all of my heart. i’m confused right now, but i know that God will lead me in the right direction to where He wants me to be, so i’m not afraid. i have a lot of questions, so if any of you think you can answer them (for example: obviously, i’ve committed many mortal sins in my life – does that mean i’m going to spend a long time in purgatory?) i would really appreciate it.
all of you, please feel free to contact me anytime you need anything at all. i can’t wait to meet a lot of great people, and i can’t wait to spend time talking about my faith and growing in my walk with Christ. if you’d ever like to hear my complete testimony or read some of my writing before i submit it, please don’t hesitate to ask—i am extremely open about my faith and my experiences, so you don’t ever need to worry about offending me. God bless you all—know that i will be keeping everyone on this website in my constant thoughts and prayers. stay strong and safe, and know that you can always contact me about anything.
love,
in the peace and love of Christ,
alison xx
i love reading, writing poetry and prose and drawing and painting, so expect a lot of writing from me. i write a lot about my past with religious overtones about how i’ve been saved and healed, and i hope and pray that my writing will inspire and touch many of you. i feel that God is calling me to do something with my writing to help others, and i’ve already been sharing my writing as a tool to witness to the people around me who need Him. my spiritual life at the moment is rather confused, but hopeful – for the past year i have considered myself a nondenominational evangelical Christian, yet i feel that the Holy Spirit is leading me back to Catholicism, and so i am returning to my old beliefs, yet i have a lot of questions and issues that i tend to talk to my pastor about. i would really appreciate your thoughts and prayers, if you would mind praying that i find the Truth and that i am able to diligently pursue it with all of my heart. i’m confused right now, but i know that God will lead me in the right direction to where He wants me to be, so i’m not afraid. i have a lot of questions, so if any of you think you can answer them (for example: obviously, i’ve committed many mortal sins in my life – does that mean i’m going to spend a long time in purgatory?) i would really appreciate it.
all of you, please feel free to contact me anytime you need anything at all. i can’t wait to meet a lot of great people, and i can’t wait to spend time talking about my faith and growing in my walk with Christ. if you’d ever like to hear my complete testimony or read some of my writing before i submit it, please don’t hesitate to ask—i am extremely open about my faith and my experiences, so you don’t ever need to worry about offending me. God bless you all—know that i will be keeping everyone on this website in my constant thoughts and prayers. stay strong and safe, and know that you can always contact me about anything.
love,
in the peace and love of Christ,
alison xx