So i have been having blasphemous thoughts for like 4 tormenting weeks and at first I cried and suffered soo much and developed a compulsion to sit and think “God is good the devil is a liar” daily without stopping, the only rest I had was when I was asleep but recently I have been so weak to stop this attacks so I have thought this horrible lies purposely even without temptation, I don’t agree with them and I know that they are lies. But did I commit the unforgivable sin? Because I did it like 6 times purposely and yes I felt anixety while doing that, I felt that it was wrong. But I know that I don’t agree with those horrible lies but I did it purposely, am I condemn? I feel so hopeless and afraid..