It takes time for someone to answer a thread and I apreciate All the threads Ive posted here especially my last one I want to thank all those people that have answered them because you have all helped me. I reallized the most important thing for me is find a church. Somewhere real because since becoming a christian TJ is the only fellowship Ive had except from Dot and Todd which have done a fantastic job too. My heart aches frrom the pain I have had over the past 12 months and I need to have that pain healed I know its from God that I need it done but whenever I pray I feel unworthy of him. My brothers and sisters thankyou for bringing me this close to God and thankyou for your support along the way. The road has been all uphill so far and what a mighty hill its been. Thankyou for all your posts and thank God for TJ.