i have been a Christian most of my life, raised in the church and really came to Christ at 21. It has been an emotionally tough life, was abused pretty bad from childhood from having a mentally ill mother. My father was active in the church, but spent very little time with me. The little time he did spend was abusive verbally and emotionally. He wasn't supportive of my choice for college, and let my mother demand I go to nursing school. I left home soon as I could, and did the best I could. I have prayed for decades that God would bring a good Christian man into my path to share life. It's terribly lonely. I have adult ADD really bad, and everyday is a struggle. I need Love, I need to feel loved and not just be shown words. Being a " sensitive" by nature, different than my family, I have yearned for closeness and real love. I feel like my life has been wasted, and disappointed in Jesus providing the basic needs. Any one else dealt with this?