Hi Everyone, I'd first love to thank each and every one of you who read this, even if you may not post I still love you for giving me your time and attention. Please know that I appreciate and thank you for everything, for the prayers that go silent out of humility or those who speak kind words to me in this thread, thank you... I've always been a bit stubborn and prideful, though I know God hates pride so much, to ask for prayer and support. I'm always the one that supports others, puts on a strong face and holds the fort down while others rest easy so this is really hard for me but I shall give this a try. I ask for prayer in guidance, for at times I find myself so lost; I ask for prayer that I may step up in a leadership role, for I feel as though God needs me to do so; I ask for prayer for peace, I haven't been happy nor stress-free in a very long time; I don't know how to exactly word it, but I ask for your prayer that I find sustainable friendship, for I have no quality friends who I can turn to in my hour of need... I honestly just ask for your prayer. I've had a rough outing the last couple of years, really the last 5+ years. My faith has dwindled at times even though God has spoken to me. I've had my education almost taken away from me; Relationships end with me being cheated on, hurt, or disrespected in so many ways; And countless other hurtful endeavors. I know I'm no different than you, my brothers and sisters. We all struggle, some of you way worse than me. That's partially why I chose not to make a list of all the things that afflict me, I know I'm not the only one hurting. I just never speak because no one ever gives me the opportunity to speak and I felt as though I should vent a tad so you'd understand. I had a recent situation where the woman I was dating announced she was going to the Air Force. Commendable in its entirety, but she said she worried about how I'd feel if she blossomed from homebody to a social butterfly, while I still may not have friends etc. and it truly hurt me for some reason. I want sustainable Christian friends so badly and I guess to hear her treat me like a charity case evoked some awful emotions. I just feel as though I'm only the stepping stone in people's lives, if that makes sense and I'm so very tired...I truly am and that's an awful thing to say at 25, but I'm seriously so tired. I ask that you please pray for me, I'm drained and I could use any and all prayers I may receive. Thank you for your time once again, you all are awesome and I love you.