Jonah2005bt
I really understand and sometime ago, I did explode, and I was so so disgusted at me I wept bitterly and cried unto the Lord for forgiveness as I knew it was so wrong.
My husband had angered me to breaking point, he would come home with alcohol on him and be so arrogant toward me, sometimes my Christianity got threw in my face, so much so that it was becoming that I was ruining my testimony because of him, and told him so.
We split for a week on his request, and the Lord has helped me so much through it all, things have really settled, he rarely goes out drinking now at all, goes to church more regular with me, and talks about Gospel related issues, such a change. He's still not saved, YET!!! that'll come I have faith.
I am going through a separate isssue at present, and I only wrote in a letter today to a cousin who is trying to claim money from something my Uncle willed to me which all went wrong, due to the solicitor, well anyway, I wrote that if I weren't saved I would not be writing these words to you they would be of a very differant tone.
and that's so very true, the Lord won't let me be grieved over it, Praise Him, he keeps that from me, I'm sure my husband wonders at times how it doesn't get me raged, but honestly it doesn't.
I also wrote, I have all the wealth I need, because I have the pearl of greatest prize the Lord Jesus. Matthew 13 v 45
Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls:
such a differance Jesus does make, He really does calm the storm, even the solicitor expected me to be annoyed, I said I wasn't, ony that my Uncle's last wishes couldn't be as he wanted them to be, but for me, no.
Hallelujah, Don't we just love Him so much.
Get on the floor and wail before Him, He is attentive to our cries when they are sincere. He knows when we are at breaking point and is waiting to help.