i suffer from severe depression and often have suicidal thoughts and feelings... alot has happened to me over the last year (including being raped by a close friend and becoming pregnant, then 17 weeks later losing the baby i intented to brin up with love) and im trying to get better but im finding it so hard cause as soon as i make one step forward i fall 5 steps back again! i want to get better but i cant get these thoughts of suicide out of my head! i cant stop thinking that suicide is the best way out even tho i know in my heart its not. i blame my self so much for what happened! everyone has told me its not my fault but thats so hard to believe at the moment! i hate feeling so depressed all the time! please pray that i will get better! thankyou!