I been using crystals and tarot card reading on and off and then im back in the bible again. I cant make up my mind to give my life to Jehovah again. Im scared i might not be happy as a christian because I like gambling and looking up dirty videos but this stuff only numbs the pain inside me. I want to believe in Jesus but I dont want to go to church because people are rude and it will effect my mental health. Please pray for me.