obvious pattern of emotional abuse

[nzdaughter]

I need some prayer my friends thank you so much. Everywhere I go I get a high degree of harrassment or bullying and always intimidation - its been a pattern in my whole life I notice. The scars are social or psychological but not physical. It happens at my work and study places, anywhere where there are groups of people. There is always someone wanting to mentally torture me whether its in my class, my temp jobs, from unsympathetic family etc. especially if friends' are not with me and I'm alone and vulnerable. These attacks have always been an unwelcome and unexpected intruder on my psyche occuring in isolated episodes in a cruel way as in emotional abuse.

Just last week it occurred at my church, of all places, and it was extremely severe, although it has been building up over the last 8 years, and now I don't want to go back! I'm still in shock that it happened in my 'final' place of refuge, and my hearts' beating uncontrollably with intimidation. Most people at church are nice people, but for these several others I believe the emotional abuse was designed to cause me to leave this church through intimidation or lies or unwelcomeness, for whatever reason I have no idea. Although I could come to my own conclusions as to why, I think it is because someone there just decided she doesn't like me, even though she doesn't know me.

But I must not let this happen because it has got to be demonic and I don't want the devil to win and isolate me from friends and joining in with praising God. I am a nervous wreck right now and cannot concentrate on anything including my studies, but I want to go back to this church, although I may need to take an anxiety pill now and again to cope. I have a strong feeling I am carrying something like emotional abuse in my spirit or something, or I'm just being attacked because I really enjoyed church last week?

 

[dalan-ranna]

I shall certainly be praying for you Sister - God is good! I think in times of isolation and emotional turmoil it is good to remember the words in Psalm 23 "though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil, for you are with me" - God is with you, even though you are walking through this dark valley right now - trust in Him to walk you through to the light again!

God Bless you Sister
Dalan

 

[Br. Bear]

Help from the Lord

hear what you're sayng sister,

May you have great confidence in the Lord.
The Scriptures tell us that in trusting Him, we shall not fear what man shall do do us.

I will pray for your help to come from the Lord (see Psalm 121)

Bless you nzdaughter ...><>

Br. Bear

 

[nzdaughter]

Hi my lovely friends, I must tell you (I feel like) I'm starting to have a breakdown in my mental state and confidence, and am experiencing a potential lapse into reactive depression due to major rejection in my home church. There is of course no viable reason behind it. Please, I don't want the devil to win and cause me sadness. I can't concentrate on my studies or anything, and think I am experiencing trauma or shock. I overcame influenza-induced depression 8 years ago and turned back to God and church attendance at this church straight after I recovered from that. I believe Jesus makes me whole again. God bless you all and I love having TalkJesus to turn to.

 

[stephen]

Lord Jesus I ask you to bring nzdaughter through all of this to a place of blessing, peace and joy. I ask you Lord Jesus to breath upon her the fire of your Holy Spirit......and make her a blessing.......in Jesus

Amen

 

[bornagain11]

nzdaughter i'll keep you in my prayers. May God strenghten you through his word.
God bless

 

[nzdaughter]

Thank you everyone I really apreciate all your prayers, it has made such a difference. I've been really down but in denial for over a week and couldn't face anyone at church. They noticed it but I didn't want them to. I didn't know what to do although I feel shy, thank you for allowing me to share this with you to help me over that hard part. I feel really blessed on here. A supernatural turnaround has happened where sadness has lifted over the last several hours, suddenly I can think calmly and concentrate on my study, maybe I can go to church next Sunday as a whole person, as God puts me back together again (-again, lol) its humbling. Thank you Jesus! Forgive me Lord if I opened any doors, Lord direct me in your path, and thank you for an opportunity to improve in strengthe. Blessings brothers sisters.

 

[Ncdataman]

Lifting up you in my prayers dear sister.

In Christ,

NC

 

[Br. Bear]

Come... let us praise the Lord for His goodness endures forever!

Thank you Jesus for touching our sister, and thank you Jesus for hearing our prayers, and, thank you Jesus for seeing fit to use Talk Jesus to minister your love and life to your children.... oh bless your holy name forever....amen

Hi nzdaughter, what wonderful news! Thanks for asking for prayer... for being so bold to do so publicly, and for considering us worthy of your needs... and thank you for telling us what we always want to hear, and that is... how our beautiful Lord has blessed you and answered our prayers for one another.

Bless you ...><>

Br. Bear

 

[naomigenesis]

Will be praying for you, don't worry, you are not the only one in this world that is facing this problem, but what makes a difference between you and the rest is that you have Jesus and us beside you.. take care ya ...

naomiG

 

[nzdaughter]

Thank you everyone! Feeling stronger now and ready to face the day with Christ. Thank you God. Hallelujah and blessings.