Christianity, faith and belief was nothing but trouble. I trusted the God of the Bible in my weakness, and ended up weaker. So weak in fact, my mind broke, and my life was left at the mercy of my own delusions. Where is God, I searched with my whole heart and ended up more empty than I started. He was never around when I needed him to come through for me. What else does someone have when the chips are down, my only help, my only love left me for dead. "You can do nothing apart from me" was so ingrained, I almost died waiting (Well I can do nothing, right?) Don't waste your time praying for me, if he's never answered my prayers, he'll never get around to yours either.