“Why what happened?” I cut him off.
“They just won’t give me a chance. They just disposed me like a rundown second hand rate clothes that has no more use.” I could not accept it and I lamented until I neglected my family and my life. For years I’ve been remorseful thinking to myself that I don’t deserve this and the fallacy of it, not thinking of my fault. Until I got to the point where I can accept it and move on, no one dared to hire me because I was old to work. I tried and tried to apply but to no avail. I gave up and now here I am with you. Given up and left reality. I’m just waiting to die. I cannot take my life because I know if I do I’m going to hell.”
You believe in hell? I asked.
“Yes I do”, he replied.
“Why then you have given up?”
I just can’t. I can’t go on.
Why?
I just can’t I told you. Starting to raise his voice.
You must go on. There are many people in the world right now going through the same problems and situations like yours. But they continue to fight on and they continue to believe. Believe in their belief. In your case, you believe in God don’t you? Then continue believing in Him. Go back to your house, to your family and try again. Even if you are unemployed you may find something to do in your life and family. Don’t give up, saying these things emphatically knowing that these also encourage me.
As he was inspiring him, the man that have a dark face and a low self-esteem posture begun to stand straight and his face became brighter and little by little become sober. And then he started to cry.
Lad, he said. Nobody I tell you nobody said those things to me like you did. Yes, I’m going home and do what you have said and start all over again. Nobody can define me! Not by job, not by money and especially not by anyone. I will only stick to what the Lord said to me in His Word.
The traveler was very happy deep within him. He does not show it but a mild blushing to his cheeks and a mild grinning is evident when one will look seriously to his face. They all sleep together and what a night for him that be. He can’t sleep and while lying down meditating on the conversation that transpired. In his thought, yeah, why not moved on and start all over again? He said to himself quietly. But as he decided to return to his life and the society, that nagging feeling of pain sets in. Past events came rushing in like a tidal wave. It made him restless. It made him uncomfortable. The old man can feel his restlessness. It’s so evident because he’s moving from side to side in his lying. He told the young traveler, “Hey, what’s wrong?” I can see and sense that you’re happy making this man goes back to his life. He didn’t answer but kept still now. Oh I know, the past pains you right? It comes back even though you want to erase and forget it. It’s always there. And you know if there’s a drug or anything that can erase bad memories or events in our lives, I will drink it and go through it even though the process may seem very painful and tedious. I’ll do it even if it costs everything once I owned. But the fact is, I mean the reality is, it’s there and even we don’t like to think of it or don’t want to remember it, it comes back. And it triggers our feelings of pain, rejection and failures and frustrations. That’s it man! You gonna deal with it. It either breaks you or makes you. It can make you a better man or a bitter man. But it’s up to you. Look at me! Speaking standing up to the point of shouting. I chose to be this. To run from pain, and even if I want to return I can’t. I just can’t anymore. My love ones had given up
“They just won’t give me a chance. They just disposed me like a rundown second hand rate clothes that has no more use.” I could not accept it and I lamented until I neglected my family and my life. For years I’ve been remorseful thinking to myself that I don’t deserve this and the fallacy of it, not thinking of my fault. Until I got to the point where I can accept it and move on, no one dared to hire me because I was old to work. I tried and tried to apply but to no avail. I gave up and now here I am with you. Given up and left reality. I’m just waiting to die. I cannot take my life because I know if I do I’m going to hell.”
You believe in hell? I asked.
“Yes I do”, he replied.
“Why then you have given up?”
I just can’t. I can’t go on.
Why?
I just can’t I told you. Starting to raise his voice.
You must go on. There are many people in the world right now going through the same problems and situations like yours. But they continue to fight on and they continue to believe. Believe in their belief. In your case, you believe in God don’t you? Then continue believing in Him. Go back to your house, to your family and try again. Even if you are unemployed you may find something to do in your life and family. Don’t give up, saying these things emphatically knowing that these also encourage me.
As he was inspiring him, the man that have a dark face and a low self-esteem posture begun to stand straight and his face became brighter and little by little become sober. And then he started to cry.
Lad, he said. Nobody I tell you nobody said those things to me like you did. Yes, I’m going home and do what you have said and start all over again. Nobody can define me! Not by job, not by money and especially not by anyone. I will only stick to what the Lord said to me in His Word.
The traveler was very happy deep within him. He does not show it but a mild blushing to his cheeks and a mild grinning is evident when one will look seriously to his face. They all sleep together and what a night for him that be. He can’t sleep and while lying down meditating on the conversation that transpired. In his thought, yeah, why not moved on and start all over again? He said to himself quietly. But as he decided to return to his life and the society, that nagging feeling of pain sets in. Past events came rushing in like a tidal wave. It made him restless. It made him uncomfortable. The old man can feel his restlessness. It’s so evident because he’s moving from side to side in his lying. He told the young traveler, “Hey, what’s wrong?” I can see and sense that you’re happy making this man goes back to his life. He didn’t answer but kept still now. Oh I know, the past pains you right? It comes back even though you want to erase and forget it. It’s always there. And you know if there’s a drug or anything that can erase bad memories or events in our lives, I will drink it and go through it even though the process may seem very painful and tedious. I’ll do it even if it costs everything once I owned. But the fact is, I mean the reality is, it’s there and even we don’t like to think of it or don’t want to remember it, it comes back. And it triggers our feelings of pain, rejection and failures and frustrations. That’s it man! You gonna deal with it. It either breaks you or makes you. It can make you a better man or a bitter man. But it’s up to you. Look at me! Speaking standing up to the point of shouting. I chose to be this. To run from pain, and even if I want to return I can’t. I just can’t anymore. My love ones had given up
