Aaron. Just call me Aaron.
So where are you going?
I’m going back home.
So you live in small springs town?
Yes.
So what happened to you? Pulling a chain that makes his truck honk loudly.
Well, I failed in life I ran and now I’m back, saying this casually.
I understand where you’re coming from sir, I mean Aaron.
I’m also like that but I have to go on. I take it all easy, he said. I make it a point to live simple.
How will you do that? To live simply?
Well sir I mean Aaron. To me, simple minded as I am as I see myself, hurts, pains, anger and unforgiveness makes ones life complicated. And I found out that to eradicate these in ones life my life makes my life simple and free, driving looking at the road while conversing with me. While I am staring at him listening to him. My sleepiness was gone when he had stated these words. He goes on to say,
“ I’m not saying I’m a robot that can feel nothing. Actually when others especially a member of my family or people that I love shrugs me off or belittle me, I’m hurt. I feel it but as I always do, I erase it in my mind saying to myself that I forgive that person and pray that God will defend and bless me. That’s what I do. All negative things that have happened to me, I tried to forget and focus on the good things, the happy things in my life. “
“But what about when you see them or encounter them let’s say in a family gathering?” I intruded.
“ Well, I always acted as if they haven’t done anything wrong with me. I treat them with respect. “
“ Is that the same as being a hypocrite?”
“ Oh no sir it isn’t.”
“ But what if they disregard you in front of your relatives? What will you do?”
“ Well I will not mind it. I’ll just go on and mingle with others and be happy. “
“ Okay ”, I responded meditating on what he said. “
Silence befalls us and as we continue to travel, I ponder everything he has said. It makes sense and it really leads to a life free and simple.
It’s a one-day trip and I slept part of it. Micky softly taps my shoulder waking me up. “ Hey Aaron, wake up, we’re here. “
Slowly opening my eyes I thank him and got off. Mixed feelings I have upon seeing the community I belong to. I can’t move and fear and shame is starting to grip my heart. My feet won’t take its steps as it normally does. My heart beats faster and becoming short of breath. I’m asking myself will I go to the community or ran away again? I looked up to the heavens and pray this prayer:
“ Father God, my body won’t go back to the community and start again. But I will do what you want, for I to live and begin again. Do help me. It’ll not be easy. I need you. Help me Lord God. “
I carried my feet and began to take steps. It’s as if my feet have weights on it. my muscles contract and its really hard to make pace. But as I do it, it feels my strides are getting lighter and lighter until it becomes normal. It is as if my waist down to my torso and feet and its toes were freed from a chain that’s tied up to it. With the courage and determination because it is God’s will, I move on.
So where are you going?
I’m going back home.
So you live in small springs town?
Yes.
So what happened to you? Pulling a chain that makes his truck honk loudly.
Well, I failed in life I ran and now I’m back, saying this casually.
I understand where you’re coming from sir, I mean Aaron.
I’m also like that but I have to go on. I take it all easy, he said. I make it a point to live simple.
How will you do that? To live simply?
Well sir I mean Aaron. To me, simple minded as I am as I see myself, hurts, pains, anger and unforgiveness makes ones life complicated. And I found out that to eradicate these in ones life my life makes my life simple and free, driving looking at the road while conversing with me. While I am staring at him listening to him. My sleepiness was gone when he had stated these words. He goes on to say,
“ I’m not saying I’m a robot that can feel nothing. Actually when others especially a member of my family or people that I love shrugs me off or belittle me, I’m hurt. I feel it but as I always do, I erase it in my mind saying to myself that I forgive that person and pray that God will defend and bless me. That’s what I do. All negative things that have happened to me, I tried to forget and focus on the good things, the happy things in my life. “
“But what about when you see them or encounter them let’s say in a family gathering?” I intruded.
“ Well, I always acted as if they haven’t done anything wrong with me. I treat them with respect. “
“ Is that the same as being a hypocrite?”
“ Oh no sir it isn’t.”
“ But what if they disregard you in front of your relatives? What will you do?”
“ Well I will not mind it. I’ll just go on and mingle with others and be happy. “
“ Okay ”, I responded meditating on what he said. “
Silence befalls us and as we continue to travel, I ponder everything he has said. It makes sense and it really leads to a life free and simple.
It’s a one-day trip and I slept part of it. Micky softly taps my shoulder waking me up. “ Hey Aaron, wake up, we’re here. “
Slowly opening my eyes I thank him and got off. Mixed feelings I have upon seeing the community I belong to. I can’t move and fear and shame is starting to grip my heart. My feet won’t take its steps as it normally does. My heart beats faster and becoming short of breath. I’m asking myself will I go to the community or ran away again? I looked up to the heavens and pray this prayer:
“ Father God, my body won’t go back to the community and start again. But I will do what you want, for I to live and begin again. Do help me. It’ll not be easy. I need you. Help me Lord God. “
I carried my feet and began to take steps. It’s as if my feet have weights on it. my muscles contract and its really hard to make pace. But as I do it, it feels my strides are getting lighter and lighter until it becomes normal. It is as if my waist down to my torso and feet and its toes were freed from a chain that’s tied up to it. With the courage and determination because it is God’s will, I move on.
