Lost and Not not sure where to go or what to do

[Andan]

Good morning brothers and sisters in Christ

This morning I wanna share whats happening in my life, I have been employed as agraphic designer for 3 years now. This job has been a huge blessing not just for myself but for my family and for others around me, however it has had its ups and downs. over the last year or so more has been expected of me as this is a senior position but seeing that I am a starting designer not even a junior this is very tough. I have had bouts of depression, anxiety things have gotten so bad at one point that I began to harm myself or cutting as some may call it. This morning I just said I hate my Job and I want to leave, I feel so incapable of accomplishing things I fear failure so much that it kills me finishing off jobs. I have been saved for 10 years with little growth I feel God telling me to wait but I cant stay here anymore I think its been also about the money as this is the highest salary I have ever earned. I am at the point where I would like to hand in the towel but I worry about where to go from here is it God's will for me to leave what happens next should I leave? these answers I know only God can give but my relationship with him has also taken a few knocks in not trusting.

Dear friends, this must be the most depressing thread you have read thus far, but your prayers and encouragement will be greatly appreciated and I know God still has a plan and Jesus is still on the Throne.
Thank you for Reading.

 

[Fragrant Grace]

And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness.
Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Greetings @Andan

I am praying for you brother....that you will know the Lord's leading in your life and that you will rejoice in His perfect love for you, knowing His perfect peace

Today I read this short sermon by JR Miller written in1894
May the words be a blessing for you....

There is a blessing in weakness--because it nourishes dependence on God.
When we are strong, or deem ourselves strong--we are really weak, since then we trust in ourselves, and do not seek Divine help.
But when we are consciously weak, knowing ourselves unequal to our duties and struggles--we are strong, because then we turn to Christ, and get His strength.

Too many people think that their weakness a barrier to their usefulness; or make it an excuse for doing little with their life.
Instead of this, however, if we give it to Christ--He will transform our weakness into strength.
He says that His power is made perfect in weakness; that is, what is lacking in human strength--He fills and makes up with divine strength.
Paul had learned this, when he said that he now gloried in his weaknesses, because on account of them--the strength of Christ rested upon him, so that, when he was weak--then he was strong--strong with Divine strength.

We need only to make sure of one thing--that we do indeed bring our weakness to Christ, and lean on Him in simple faith.
This is the vital link in getting the blessing.
Weakness itself is a burden; it is like chains upon our limbs. If we try to carry it alone--we shall only fail.
But if we lay it on the strong Son of God--and let Him carry us and our burden, going on quietly and firmly in the way of duty--He will make our very weakness--a secret source of strength. He will not take the weakness from us--that is not His promise--but He will so fill it with His own power--that we shall be strong, more than conquerors, able to do all things through Christ, who strengthens us!

This is the blessed secret of having our burdening weakness, transformed into strength.
The secret can be found only in Christ.
And in Him--it can be found by every humble, trusting disciple.

 

[Brighthouse]

Rom 5:5 " and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given us. Hope my good brother is not a bad,we just have to look and see where we placed it is all. We find that in great times, our hope can be placed upon ourselfs,and for a while we feel pretty good in where we are, and what we accomplished,except one day,we come to the truth of where we are in our accomplishments.And then we find that the hope we placed in ourselfs was never enough to sustain us.We have thanked the Lord of course,but do not wish to include him in our lives fully,and when this happens all that we have worked so very hard to be proud of does not mean as much as it did at first.

So we condemn ourself and think, I have passed my Jesus by to walk in front of him, looking to lead him.And now I have become alone in my thoughts,and wonder if my Jesus will come and forgive me from my own pride? The enemy would plant thoughts in our mind to rob us of what we should always know,we have become much like the Prodigal Son.( Luke 15:11-32) But if we will just follow through as the son, our Jesus opens his arms always to us to take us back! Jesus has never forsaken us,nor has he never been mindful of us.The lesson.

I know of the road you walk,i have been on this road myself more then once i am ashamed to admit! But not anymore! For the road is wide and broad and looks to connect to the narrow road we wish to stay on. Then a great decision is to be made!!( Joshua 24:15)"If it is disagreeable in your sight to serve the Lord,CHOOSE for youselves today whom you wish to serve.If we do choose Jesus my good brother then we must be willing to also do this.( proverbs 3:6) IN ALL your ways acknowledge HIM,and he WILL make your paths straight. Jesus does not wish to be on call,he wishes to become every part of our lives bro,and when we are willing to make Jesus a part of everything in our lives,he will heal both our mind and Spirit!

He sure did mine bro! But few are willing to do this, and even fewer remain in Christ Jesus because of this.Look close at this parable brother please.( mark 4:14-20) 1 out of 4 produce any fruit at all! Some receive the word, and satan comes and takes away the word which has been sown,some receive the Word with great joy( rocky ground) but have no root in themselves( this root brother! Eph 3:17-19!!) They really do not know just how much God truly loves them! And when tough times come,or persecution arises because of the word which was spoken to them, they also fall away.

Then there is the thorny ground They hear the word receive it with great joy, even walk it out for a while! But these become choked by the riches and the desires for other things which choke them and the word become unfruitful.

. Now us brother!! Who become willing to endure!!( heb 10:36!!) And know that Jesus who first planted us will perfect us in him!!( Phil 1:6) These and these alone good brother produce, because these were planted upon good soil,this ground knows God loves them everyday! They do not go by what they feel!! SURE!! we make mistakes,sure!! Growth in Christ Jesus is a progress! The seed which God himself has planted must die to itself before any growth can ever take place.( gal 2:20)

Please find a good loving Church brother,and get in and stay in the Word daily!!That is how good ground acts! And the ground produces fruit thirty,and sixty and for those of us who are willing to truly count the cost of service,100 fold! I myself good brother am not content with a little fruit growing,I want 100 fold!! And I through my Jesus am going to have it!! It is not easy my brother!! Far from it!! ( luke 14:28-35!!) But I have found through many trials that the proof of our fruit is in the taste of that fruit!!( 1 peter 1:6-9!!)

All we have to do brother is one thing!!! When everyone around us says you are dead,including the devil to our minds,Jesus says do not be afraid!! ONLY BELIEVE!!!( Mark 5:35-36!!) Believing is not just a thought brother, but rather an action!! ( james 1:22) The Lord must really wish to do something to you brother,rare it is that I would speak this long to someone i do not even know!! lol My prayers are with you brother, go bear much fruit!! Go all the way in Jesus brother!! Indeed he will show you things you never thought possible!! For in Christ Jesus is his very wisdom!!( proverbs 8!!!) These words do not come from my own thoughts,but rather from the wisdom of who truly lives inside me brother!You can confirm this for yourself!! ( 1 cor 1:30-31 and 1 cor 2:14-16!!) Remember brother!! ( Luke 1:37!!!!) FOR NOTHING!!!! will be impossible with God!! I am proof of his seed brother,you can be to! God Bless you!