Please pray that I remain strong and let God work in my life. I pray that I hold on to Gods word. I'm looking for God to restore my marriage, my 15 yr old son, finances, place of dwelling, transportation, my husband and myself. I don't want to be angry, hurt, depressed etc etc so on and so forth. I know Gods time is not our time. I will hold on and not let go but I want to hold on rejoicing and being happy and some days are better than others. I don't want to feel beat down. I want to slap the devil in the face and sing and always smile. I am asking God to give me a little gift. He knows what I mean, something that I know was meant for me, and that I know it came from him (God). Something to help me to hang in there. I'm not giving up no matter what. My husband says I am like a pitbull. Once I grab on its hard to get me to let go. It's good to be like that but I want to let go of the things I should let go of that are not like God. I will not let go of my marriage. I vowed to God that I would love, honor and cherish this man till death due us part. In sickness and in health, in good times and bad times. I'm looking for more good times now, I think the past 9 months have given us enough bad times. I am keeping my vow to God concerning my marriage. I have no control over my husbands actions. I can only pray for him, which I do every day. I'm also looking for my 15 yr old son to find God. I pray God keeps tapping him on the shoulder. God I thank you for all you have done and do for me. You alone are the only one who truly loves me. I want you to know that I love you. Your daughter, Brenda