After my heart attack, I started looking for answers in the bible. I intended to read it (The Bible) from cover to cover, but I kept being led to Job. This often happened quite literally with my Bible falling open at this book.
So, I started reading. I then realised that not only was my health damaged, but so also was my wealth ( I can't work at my profession of teaching science) and my family was damaged. My grown up children won't have anything to do with me.
I slowly came to realise that all my trials and tribulations were caused by me and only me. God didn't do it to me, I did it to myself; smoking, divorce etc...
As I read through Job I came to realise that my only saving grace was that I never cursed God, but I did ask Him why He did these things to me.
Now I am at the point where I am simply accepting my wrongdoing and asking Jesus Christ to forgive me. I know that God will give me back my life in His way and in His time, when He is ready.
So, I pray and wait.
Watch this space and please pray for me. I'm half way through Job...
So, I started reading. I then realised that not only was my health damaged, but so also was my wealth ( I can't work at my profession of teaching science) and my family was damaged. My grown up children won't have anything to do with me.
I slowly came to realise that all my trials and tribulations were caused by me and only me. God didn't do it to me, I did it to myself; smoking, divorce etc...
As I read through Job I came to realise that my only saving grace was that I never cursed God, but I did ask Him why He did these things to me.
Now I am at the point where I am simply accepting my wrongdoing and asking Jesus Christ to forgive me. I know that God will give me back my life in His way and in His time, when He is ready.
So, I pray and wait.
Watch this space and please pray for me. I'm half way through Job...