learning2love
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You said you loved me
But then you seemed to change
You became angry easily
Over stupid little things.
I wanted to please you,
Tried to make you happy
And do what you wanted
But it was never good enough.
You'd grab me, pinning me
Against the wall. I was scared.
You made me have sex
Even when I had said no.
I wanted a baby but
Didn't feel worthy.
When I learned I was pregnant,
I was afraid for us both.
If you learned the truth,
Would you leave us like
The last guy, or would you
Hurt me and my baby more?
If I had my baby, would you
Throw her against the wall too?
Would you become more angry
And take it out on me?
I was afraid and alone with
No one to talk to.
I was afraid for my baby
And didn't see an alternative.
I hated myself for what
I was considering.
But I thought it was all I
Could do to protect her.
After it was over, I grew
More angry towards you.
I hated you, but
Hated myself even more.
I should have left you
Then I would have had
My baby. Instead theres
An ache in my heart.
But then you seemed to change
You became angry easily
Over stupid little things.
I wanted to please you,
Tried to make you happy
And do what you wanted
But it was never good enough.
You'd grab me, pinning me
Against the wall. I was scared.
You made me have sex
Even when I had said no.
I wanted a baby but
Didn't feel worthy.
When I learned I was pregnant,
I was afraid for us both.
If you learned the truth,
Would you leave us like
The last guy, or would you
Hurt me and my baby more?
If I had my baby, would you
Throw her against the wall too?
Would you become more angry
And take it out on me?
I was afraid and alone with
No one to talk to.
I was afraid for my baby
And didn't see an alternative.
I hated myself for what
I was considering.
But I thought it was all I
Could do to protect her.
After it was over, I grew
More angry towards you.
I hated you, but
Hated myself even more.
I should have left you
Then I would have had
My baby. Instead theres
An ache in my heart.