I'm very sad

[dpg3]

My Mom is sick in the nursing home she is in, some kind of a bug going around. She has had very bad diarrhea, she is 89 so I am very worried about her. So please pray for her. Our family revolves around her in many ways and I'm afraid when she eventually passes away it will really effect the family. I think we'll become more isolated. That I'll become more isolated, more than I already am.
I really feel like there is no reason for my life. I'm 50 and just lost my job last Dec. I'm working at a part time job now which I don't like at all. So I'm basically at 50, looking for a new job, it feels hopeless. I am very very depressed, I think about suicide but would never do it. But I wonder where God is when my life is this empty. I followed Him and all I have is dust in my mouth, so much for abundant life. I feel like he has abandoned me.

 

[Br. Bear]

Brother dpg3,

it is quite common to question the Lord in our life when things look bad, and I encourage you to look more to the countless blessings that you do have. For example, your mother is obviously a wonderful blessing to you, and to now be 89, has been alive and a blessing for all these 50 years of yours. There are so many who never have such a blessing for so long.... and you speak of other members of your family... more blessings... and perhaps you have a whole and working body, that functions well, given 50 years of age.... and then the very fact you can see... and you live in such a safe and beauty filled country...

and my brother, as you begin to see the manifold blesings upon your life... look unto the Lord as He who has given you it all... and as the Lord who only wants to bless you.
Jobs come and go. The Lord lives forever and wants for you to look to Him now in your concerns and what you say is depression... and He will lift you up.

As we look at the 'bad' things in this world, we can become discouraged.... so, from Scripture, I exhort you in Jesus name...

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Philippians 4:6-8

and I will pray for you my brother in Christ.

Bless you ....><>

Br. Bear

 

[Whendancer]

Be Encouraged

My Brother!
Here is a scripture that has always helped me to "encourage myself" when I needed to keep the "main thing" at the front of my heart!

Though the fig tree may not blossom,
Nor fruit be on the vines;
Though the labor of the olive may fail,
And the fields yield no food;
Though the flock may be cut off from the fold,
And there be no herd in the stalls-
YET I WILL REJOICE IN THE LORD,
I WILL JOY IN THE GOD OF MY SALVATION!
The LORD God is my strength;
He WILL make my feet like
deer's feet,
And He WILL make me walk on my High Hills!
HABAKKUK 3:16 thru 19

This scripture reminds me that it is not what I have or more like what I do not have (in this case) that matters. What matters is that I have a reason to rejoice because the LORD God is the God of my Salvation! 7 Billion people on the planet, how come I get to know Him? Grace! I have do nothing that merits even a glance from Him yet He has made all the necessary provisions for me to know Him not just as Creator but as Father.
My Brother, I know what it's like to be unemployed and underemployed. I know what it's like to work in a place I did not like, but God used it for His glory when years later the experience that I got there was what was needed for doing a work for the Lord in a faith-based work environment! To God Goes All the Glory!!!
I, also, know what it's like to have an elder relative be the rock of the family. But, now, I lean on Jesus. That way, I have a solid and an eternal foundation that is unshakable even when my faith gets a little "shaky" I clinge to Him with everything in me!
God does not abandon us, my Brother. He has paid too high of a price to just let you go...no, He is the Good Father that keeps all of His promises. His love is unfailing and He is ever-present. Tell Him all that is on your heart, He will answer. Be still and wait for it. Be patient and you will not be disappointed.

I will pray for you, dear Brother, you will have your testimony to share with the Body so that you will be an encouragement to others.

Your Sister in Christ,
Whendancer

 

[Fragrant Grace]

The Lord is near

Dpg3

I am praying for you and feel for your situation.

Wait on the Lord....and He shall strenghthen thine heart Ps 27:14

He hath said, I will never leave thee Heb 13:5

The Lord knows what you are going through. He knows our frailty and He will carry our burdens. Use this difficult time as an opportunity to draw nearer to the Lord.

When He hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold Job 23:10

In my prayers

Julia

 

[sealightbreeze]

I too, will pray for you. I know how scary and hard it can be having a loved one in a nursing home- my mom is in one too. I will pray. GBu

 

[Ncdataman]

Standing with you my brother in prayer, my God ease your mind and guide your path.

In Christ,

NC

 

[stephen]

Lord Jesus Bless this brother and meet his need. I ask you LOrd to bring joy and peace into his life. O God I call upon your Name, I ask you to restore......

 

[grace07]

"For where two or three come together in my name, there I am with them." Mathew 18:20 (NIV)

Be strong in the lord and the power of His might. Praying for your strength that God will guide you what to do. Leave all your request to Him. Have faith and trust in Him. You are not alone brother. God is there for you. He will never leave you nor forsake you.

In Christ,
Grace07

 

[dpg3]

Thanks everyone for your kind and thoughtful comments and prayers I appreciate them.

 

[leapdaybride]

You are in my prayers this morning as I take a walk to enjoy our beautiful surroundings. I woke to tears this morning thinking of my mom who died 7 years ago. She was our ROCK! However, my sister and I are much closer now. I regret that we constantly fought and put my mother in the middle before she died. I know she is looking down on us now with pride! I surely do miss her, but I know she is with me now more that she ever was!

She was suffering in ICU with heart and kidney failure, but hanging on... I knew she mised my dad terribly (he had died 16 years earlier) and I whispered in her ear that we were going to be alright, we could take care of ourselves. I told her I loved her. I had stayed with her that night before and had to leave to get my kids off to school. She waited for me to leave, and passed.

Never does a day go by that I don't think of my parents. However, I know that now that they are spirits, they know my heart, and I shall not disappoint them.
Whatever your stuggles in this life, always know that GOD is with you and there are far better plans ahead for us all!!

GOD BLESS YOU

 

[SpiritLedEd]

I know she is looking down on us now with pride! I surely do miss her, but I know she is with me now more that she ever was.

I don't know of any place in Scripture where we are told that our loved ones who've gone ahead of us into heaven are looking down on us and paying attention to us. On the contrary, Revelation 4 and 5 (especially Rev 5:13) tell us that they are caught up in continual worship.

My son went to be with the Lord this past August. He was born while I was a practicing alcoholic. I was not a good father to him for most of his life. However, in the his last years we developed a good relationship and I had the honor of leading him to the Lord just before he died. He's with the Lord now and he's part of the continuous worship that goes on in Heaven and, while I miss him a lot, I'm glad for him.

SLE

 

[dpg3]

leapdaybride that was so beautiful, thank you for sharing this with me. My Mom turns 90 May 7. We are having a big birthday party for her at the home. Eight of her nine children will be there it will be a real blessing for Mom. I tell my Mom I love her every time I see her. I also tell her that Jesus loves her and that one day she'll be in heaven. She has Alzheimer's so it isn't easy communicating with her. She does like it when I dance for her, lol!!
I speak to my Mom about God and I have so little faith myself!!
Thanks again for sharing!!!!!!!

 

[dpg3]

Thanks to everyone who replied.
My situation hasn't changed much. Physically things are getting worse. Because I am on my feet all day, my feet ache constantly. I'm hoping to get orthopedics to help with this problem. I have arthritis in my left knee and it is very painful. Last but not least I have sleep apnea(diagnosed in the last year). It just means that although I sleep I never get a good sleep. I never wake-up refreshed and find myself dozing off at home constantly. The lack of sleep has contributed to my continued depression. I'm trying to get a CPAP machine and mask which will help with my sleep but am having a very difficult time getting insurance to cover it. The machine costs $2200.00. I can get a used one for $400.00 but that is still a lot of money to me, I only work part-time.
I worry about losing my job because of my physical problems and I am very concerned about my health because of my sleep apnea. I also worry about my Mom quite a bit. I'm lucky because I work at the nursing home where she is a resident. So I get to see her every time I work. I always wonder if God gave me this job to be close to my Mom. It makes it a lot easier for me to see her.
Please pray for me physically and that the insurance will cover the expense of the CPAP machine I need.
I feel probably the most alone I have ever felt in my life and due to my physical problems, hopeless!!!
The physical problems have to a large degree made my life quite difficult. Everyday I work it is with pain. But I need my job so I have to work.
Please pray that God gives me some direction, some help!!!!

 

[rlowe]

My Mom is sick in the nursing home she is in, some kind of a bug going around. She has had very bad diarrhea, she is 89 so I am very worried about her. So please pray for her. Our family revolves around her in many ways and I'm afraid when she eventually passes away it will really effect the family. I think we'll become more isolated. That I'll become more isolated, more than I already am.
I really feel like there is no reason for my life. I'm 50 and just lost my job last Dec. I'm working at a part time job now which I don't like at all. So I'm basically at 50, looking for a new job, it feels hopeless. I am very very depressed, I think about suicide but would never do it. But I wonder where God is when my life is this empty. I followed Him and all I have is dust in my mouth, so much for abundant life. I feel like he has abandoned me.

Praying for your mom & your whole family.

Don't doubt in the darkness, what God showed you in the light.
The light & joy may be just around the bend.

Praying for you emotionally, spiritually, & financially.

May God awe you with wonder upon wonder.

 

[rlowe]

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[Etienne Marais]

I am very sorry to hear about your mom. I will pray that God will heal her. If you feel sad ask Jesus to give you peace because to pray to God help always. I will pray for her.

 

[Boanerges]

My Mom is sick in the nursing home she is in, some kind of a bug going around. She has had very bad diarrhea, she is 89 so I am very worried about her. So please pray for her. Our family revolves around her in many ways and I'm afraid when she eventually passes away it will really effect the family. I think we'll become more isolated. That I'll become more isolated, more than I already am.
I really feel like there is no reason for my life. I'm 50 and just lost my job last Dec. I'm working at a part time job now which I don't like at all. So I'm basically at 50, looking for a new job, it feels hopeless. I am very very depressed, I think about suicide but would never do it. But I wonder where God is when my life is this empty. I followed Him and all I have is dust in my mouth, so much for abundant life. I feel like he has abandoned me.

One thing I had to learn the hard way my friend, God is Lord of the hard places in my life as well and the easy. He is God on the mountain but also God in the valley.
Jesus Himself promised us trials and tribulation but He also promised to be there with us in those trials.
Do not give up, surrender into His hand and walk by faith trusting Him to make a way- you will see a better day.
You are in my prayers,
Many blessings in Jesus wonderful Name,
brother Larry.

 

[Giggles4God]

My father is at the place you are in finding work. He is 49. He's had problems with keeping jobs due to bi-polar which we both have. Both his parents have past on now.

I know from my own experiences that when I thought God was away...somewhere else, but not with me...because I felt alone and so very empty...as my life has gone on...I have learned that God was there...there in all the hurt and pain and sadness and loneliness. For me, He was standing there waiting for me to recognize, to see Him. I sometimes think we wear fogged and darkened sunglasses and can't see what is right there in front of us...God holding out His hand wanting us to reach out and take it. Our humanness, our circumstance clouds our minds and our vision. We all need to take those sunglasses off!

Brother,

God hasn't left you. For He has said in the Bible, His Word, I will never leave nor forsake you! Remind yourself of that! Many of us here, are praying for you and your mom and family!

Blessings to you! Keep us updated!