I know what Matthew 12:31-32 says about the unpardonable sin. It's to speak against the Holy Spirit. I feel that I've done that. I've done it in my head. Demons would influence me to blaspheme and i would hear blasphemous thoughts. I've called God horiible names that i regret. I wish i hadn't entertained the Thought of blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I wish i hadnt done it. Everyday i feel condemned on this. I've called God a demon and said this against the Holy Spirit. I now want a real relationship with God but feel that it's impossible for me. I'm too lazy to repent but also I'm not encouraged and fully enlightened on what to repent from. I want to recognize conviction. Please help. What does the Holy Spirit tell you on this? Did i blaspheme the Holy Spirit? I ask this because i can't hear from God directly and that only God can deternine if one has commited this sin. I also hear that it's very difficult to commit. Please help and pray for me.