Hello everyone,
Well, I really need some prayers. I'm graduating from high school this May and I am having the hardest time deciding which college to attend. This seems like not a big deal, but once you hear the details, you'll be amazed. Anyways, my original plans, goal was to go out of town to a christian university and experience change and a different ambience. What happened, though, was that I recieved a full scholarship from acceptance in an Honors Program at a local university, Texas A&M International. While this is great news because I get to keep any extra money from scholarships, it's also terrifying news. It means that I feel more stressed now to stay here aside from the fact that my parents really want me here, too. So I thought, well this is pretty good news. Not many people get this opportunity.. Yet when I stop to meditate on the direction of my life, I realize that it was not what I wanted. When I was younger, I loathed the idea of having to stay here like the rest of my family. I wanted to be the one to actually go out.. it's even more pressuring cause I'm the first child from the entire family to finish school so everyone is looking at my decisions. I'm so confused.. I just feel like crying. I want to please my family and parents by staying here but then I'm not fulfilling my dream. I feel like I won't be happy if I go to TAMIU. I've been praying to God for direction, but I haven't really recieved answers. There's a whole lot more to story... If anyone can email me or just give me advice or even pray for me, I thank you so so much..
Well, I really need some prayers. I'm graduating from high school this May and I am having the hardest time deciding which college to attend. This seems like not a big deal, but once you hear the details, you'll be amazed. Anyways, my original plans, goal was to go out of town to a christian university and experience change and a different ambience. What happened, though, was that I recieved a full scholarship from acceptance in an Honors Program at a local university, Texas A&M International. While this is great news because I get to keep any extra money from scholarships, it's also terrifying news. It means that I feel more stressed now to stay here aside from the fact that my parents really want me here, too. So I thought, well this is pretty good news. Not many people get this opportunity.. Yet when I stop to meditate on the direction of my life, I realize that it was not what I wanted. When I was younger, I loathed the idea of having to stay here like the rest of my family. I wanted to be the one to actually go out.. it's even more pressuring cause I'm the first child from the entire family to finish school so everyone is looking at my decisions. I'm so confused.. I just feel like crying. I want to please my family and parents by staying here but then I'm not fulfilling my dream. I feel like I won't be happy if I go to TAMIU. I've been praying to God for direction, but I haven't really recieved answers. There's a whole lot more to story... If anyone can email me or just give me advice or even pray for me, I thank you so so much..
