Hey to all,
its been a rough couple of weeks. I am feeling so much grief cause my dad passed away 5 months ago. since fathers day passed i feel grief cause i dont have my dad anymore. I still wonder if he went to heaven cause he was not saved before he died. i worry that he might be in hell. Im hurting so much. and just last saturday i heard a sermon that there is only 1 road to heaven and that is thru jesus. plus i worry cause my mom is not saved. she has come to church with me maybe like 10 times since my dads death. but she still praises her hindu god. I worry too much that she might end up like my dad. on top of the worrying, my mom is trying to get me married by a year or 2. she doesnt accept of me marrying a christian woman. she told me she would die if i did. dunno to call her bluff or not. i have lost my faith with this issue with my mom. either i follow god and lose my mom and family or go their way. the cost of following jesus is so costly. having to lose the people that took care of you. knowing they will not be with you in the eternal life. I feel like this life doesnt matter sometimes. I have a hard time accepting that i am going to be the most hated person in my family and the world. its brutal to know other loved ones cant go where u r going. my faith is just down. i dont know if i will ever increase faith. things just feel hopeless. if anyone has solutions let me know.
its been a rough couple of weeks. I am feeling so much grief cause my dad passed away 5 months ago. since fathers day passed i feel grief cause i dont have my dad anymore. I still wonder if he went to heaven cause he was not saved before he died. i worry that he might be in hell. Im hurting so much. and just last saturday i heard a sermon that there is only 1 road to heaven and that is thru jesus. plus i worry cause my mom is not saved. she has come to church with me maybe like 10 times since my dads death. but she still praises her hindu god. I worry too much that she might end up like my dad. on top of the worrying, my mom is trying to get me married by a year or 2. she doesnt accept of me marrying a christian woman. she told me she would die if i did. dunno to call her bluff or not. i have lost my faith with this issue with my mom. either i follow god and lose my mom and family or go their way. the cost of following jesus is so costly. having to lose the people that took care of you. knowing they will not be with you in the eternal life. I feel like this life doesnt matter sometimes. I have a hard time accepting that i am going to be the most hated person in my family and the world. its brutal to know other loved ones cant go where u r going. my faith is just down. i dont know if i will ever increase faith. things just feel hopeless. if anyone has solutions let me know.