My life is really stinking right now. Im getting unusually bad grades in school, when Im at home Im not doing any of my work, I am falling in and out of an addiction Ive had for a long time since beginning high school, and as Im getting older I cant figure out what to do with my life. I live with my parents and feel like they dont know me at all. Im stressed out being in college yet not knowing what im doing there. I feel like I've lost all the aspirations I had about 3 to 4 years ago, and like my life is going down the drain. I dont know how to get out of this hole I feel im im falling into. I tend to be a daydreamer in things and end up doing nothing. I dont know how to change my ways to please God with a sincere heart and with honesty inside me. I feel like a hypocrite, a liar, a faker, a spoiled brat, and I dont know how to change. Ive tried many times before but end up coming back. It scares me because I feel like a fake Christian, though I dont do evident things that prove otherwise. I feel like there's no one I can talk to about this. I dont know what to do, my mind is so confused. Someone please give advice... my academic life, my career considerations, my spiritual life, my home life, my personality and my mind are all at stake here due to my weakness inside. I know its all up to me, but I dont know to proceed. I want to repent to God but cant find how to be sincere about it and ACTUALLY repent. I appreciate anyone who can offer help.