Please help me. my name is Jean, I am originally from Brazil. For many years I've been struggling to believe in GOD, Jesus etc... I recall that whenever I was sick I started believing, somehow I could believe in Jesus, but that was temporarily until my illness was solved. I realized that I was scared and just want to believe in whatever gave me hope to solve my problems. I tried hard to believe in God , really hard ! when I read scientific articles against God I feel like not agree with it. I have watched some debates on you tube between Christians and Atheists I always keep my finger crossed that the Christians have a better point to "destroy" the atheist arguments. I really want to believe. Unfortunately, when I rarely read few versus of the bible I just can't accept these incredible miracles written there. I don't feel like praying and when I go to church I feel like I don't belong there... It's like everyone is connected and I'm completely disconnected. Deep inside of me, I want to be a believer. When I look into all these type of religions all over the world makes me think I Christianity is the right one ? all these stories about Jesus was married, lost gospels that contradict the bible we have today? sometimes I think that why for some people is so easy to believe? they need no prove nothing? they just believe. For others like me, it doesn't matter how many proof is presented I still find it hard to keep believing in God. maybe it's a gene? maybe I was born this way? some are born with a gene to believe and some not? I have suffered from character disturbance which I describe as: lies, pornographic addictions, arrogance etc ... sometime I think I'm NOT a good person at all. But I want to be a better person.. I really mean it... but i think it will never happen...anyway, i changed the subject completely, but somehow not believing in God could be causing all this bad characters issues. I could define myself as a self-destroying person! if anyone out there could help me, I will appropriate.
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