I need help, I'm 17 and my mom is really mad at me. I struggled with depression, and was on anti depressants and I stopped taking them one day to another bc I thought I didnt need them anymore. My parents were on vacation while I did this. They were worried. and they're very mad. So many people were there for me and helped me get through some of the withdraw. Now my mom is still mad at me bc I didnt do all the stuff I needed to do around the house when she was gone, I do not follow directions. She is upset bc I keep looking and wanting to talk to my ex that she disapproves of. She told me if things didnt change soon, I need to go to look for new living arrangements. My mom isn't a bad person, she's amazing, she always helps me, and has given me endless support. I get why she's kinda giving up now. Bc of all of this ive been wanting to just end my life, I want to just stop all of this. I even rationalized the decision by telling myself that it will only hurt my family for a little while and eventually it will just pass. Thankfully, the Holy Spirit gave me the strength to do otherwise. I need help, I want things to be better. I keep trying, but I keep messing up. Im a fairly new believer and I want help, I have so many amazing godly people in my life that I know can help me, but I'm embarrassed to tell them. PLEASE HELP. I can't help but cry all the time, and I just want to get this over with. I want to move on and be happy, I WANT TO CHANGE.