My dearest Alyse Weiss,I WOULD LOVE TO BE ON FIRE AGAIN!! I have moved away from God and I wasn’t sure what was stopping me from coming back into His presence. I have prayed about this and asked God to search my heart and to expose my sins.
I’m not going to lie. . . God shared so much with me. I took a pen out and wrote down all of my behaviors and qualities that are displeasing to Him. It filled up half of a page. I knew that this was God because I didn’t want to beat myself up or end my life over what was shown to me. Still, I’m not entirely sure why I do the things that I do. This reminds me of Paul and what he wrote to the Roman church. I want to be closer to God, but I am having a difficult time trusting Him with my walk. This is because I have issues with the opposite sex. Yet, I understand that God is not a man nor are His ways like ours.
I hurt for your friend. I do. It’s tough to remove the people who love in this world. Yes, I do see the person regardless of all the ways that he has hurt me in the past. He felt that he wasn’t worthy of the love that I have tried showing him. So he did everything in his power to push me away. He later admitted me to that he has always loved me, but he was insecure and scared. People who struggle in these ways have a difficult time understanding God’s love for them and that hurts me because I can relate. It’s easy to say “God loves me and He died for my sins,” but to truly believe this . . . it isn’t always that easy for some. Again, thank you so much for sharing your time with me.
I'm trying .
When you are true, Yahweh will never give up but, he would come to help you.
"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you." - John 15:7