I am begging you to please pray for me

[Seeker Of Jesus]

I accepted Christ on may 29th 2010. it's been almost a year and i must say that my walk with Him has been a roller coaster. These past few months i have been battling with my flesh and my flesh has been winning. I really wanna turn away from the things of this world but i can feel something strongly trying to keep me in this world. I no longer read the bible nor do i pray as much, and i know how important prayer is. Prayer is THE most important thing in a Christians life yet i can't seem to find that drive that i had to pray and to read His word. I dont think 2 hours can past through out any day the God doesn't pop up in my head and i know that's Him calling out to me but i just can't seem to find that drive. Just thinking about Christ and what He did on the cross, should be more than enough to drive me but i shamefully admit that it doesn't and when i do get that spark it doesn't last long. I long to have a relationship with Him but i just can't seem to commit. These past months i realized that when the bible says that we (who accept Christ) will be in spiritual warfare the moment we accept Him meant that literally and wow how i have been at war and i feel like i'm loosing. There is this particular sin (pirating, by pirating i mean the downloading of music, movies, tv shows, video games without paying which is stealing and i didn't really see it as stealing until a few weeks ago that it hit me, but i can't seem to break away from that, i mean it seems ridiculous but it's true. I can seem to be able to cut the cord that ties me to this world.


I have looked back and re evaluated my faith and i don't think i have produced any fruit since i have accepted Christ and that scares me. Jesus said that faith with out fruit is a dead faith and at first i thought that it contradicted the fact that the bible says that our salvation is in Christ and in Christ alone and not by works but now i realize that what Jesus said does not contra dict that but it means that when someone is truly saved they will feel this passion, this drive to wanna do Good things in the name of Jesus but i have yet to feel that and when i do it fades away quickly. Because of this i have questioned whether i am truly saved, I have become emotionally numb to certain things. I live in a household where my family don't believe, and most of my family outside my house dont believe and so i'm constantly surrounded by that is having an affect on me.

This has been tearing me apart this is constantly in my mind and i wish so bad to live for God. i know i wrote alot and i apologize for that but i needed to get this out.


I'm asking from the bottom of my soul to please pray for me.

Thanks and God bless

 

[j_sp]

Stay Calm and Grow in the Lord

Seeker of Jesus,

It sounds like the Lord has convicted your heart about some things and is pressing you to get back on track. It's good that you're seeing this. The concern is if you weren't convicted at all about it. So there are still some good seeds in that heart. I have been where you are where you do not want to read the Scriptures and you know better, but you need to press through (no matter how much you may struggle with it). The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Based off what the Lord's already shown you, it may be helpful to seek the Scriptures and see what the Lord says about what actually produces good fruit and why. Do a study on this.

The other important thing is to grow in learning to hear God's voice or His Holy Spirit, so that He can lead you out of temptations and guide you into who He's called you to be. Another suggestion is, get rid of all the stolen stuff - as this can have spiritual ties to it (as a result of the sin) and cause a bondage in the spirit realm that may be holding you back. This will be difficult to do but hey, the price of Christ is worth it over the price of the natural things that you may have lost (Acts 19:18-20; Philippians 3:7-11).

I pray that the Lord would give you more strength in Him to overcome; that you would grow in understanding the ways of the Lord - the fear of Him, greater discernment, peace, and eyes to see what the Spirit of the Lord is showing you and ears to hear what He is saying. I also pray that He would cut the ties of the enemy that are holding you back and that you would grow in yearning to know more of Him.

j_sp

 

[smitty]

walking with God is a life long process. you will not become a spiritaul giants overnight. quit trying. yes it is hard to cut ties with the world, but just giving up and accepting it is the worse thing you can do. you can only grow spiritual threw reading , studying , the word. praying is just talking to God honestly. no one person in this world that i know of has it all together, if they say they do i would stay clear them, i might mess up their life. walking with God is not a emotional event. in my life right know, i do not hear from God at all. so should i just quit , feel sorry for myself, no i keep seeking him, that is all i can do. God will not quit on you, or me, but just keep knocking, seeking, and asking. God is not though with you yet.
i pray holy Lord thar you will speak and comfort my brother you will show him the great love you have for him. fill him Lord with purpose, direction, for your ear is not dull that you cannot hear Lord, or your arm is not to short that you cannot reach him. i thank you Lord for my brother, we suffer together, and we will rejoice together. In Jesus's mighty name i pray amen

 

[jari]

Hi seeker.
My advice to you is that you keep growing in spirit by bible and prayer and worship. Jesus says we cant bring forth fruit unless we abide in Him:
John 15:5
I am the vine, ye [are] the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.


So its really God's work when we can bear fruit..

He also gives the desire to. But you need spirituality by bible reading and prayer and worship.

 

[Copper25]

Hi, From my own Experience, I have had dry spells, even a long lapse were my love for God, my zeal for Him, my emotions were completely out of it; but one thing that i have learned is this:
James 4:2) ...ye have not, because ye ask not

If you need a desire to be stronger in your heart; Ask God to put it in your heart and magnify it in your heart. If you want to break away from a sin in your life, then pray that God would increase your hatred for evil and your love for good.

Don't get to obsessed with works because it can be an Idol. (I've been there), but rather focus on the Lord. I know this may not be what you want to hear, but you must make war in your spiritual life. pray that God would rip that passiveness out of your heart and put a striving to seek him and to know him. Pressing is what you are going to have to do. Every relationship takings commitment. Either one will fight or be devoured by the enemy and their own flesh.

1 Peter 5:5-8

God resists the proud, and gives grace to the humble. Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care on him; for he cares for you. Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour:

Let God bring a spiritual revolution into your life. Run to Him.

 

[Brighthouse]

Brother Seeker Of Jesus, I could with no shortness of breath tell you how bad you are!! That you lack this or that,and make you feel so bad, that you would never complain again!! LOL

What I have never been to a place where you are at?? LOL Oh Brother!! have I!! Here is what happened, I, like you really gave up!! What is the use,no one around me believes!! People that do even bring up Jesus is usually a curse word added to it,I am so weak, I can't pray,not just do not want to, be really can't!

I could not have been any lower then a snake!! One day as I was talking a walk along, thinking how much like you, I really need Jesus,and wish I could find a way to break through,there was this horrible accident near my house! A man had bought a brand new car, had just put it in the garage,he had just gone in the house for a lunch, when a lady had a heart attack,she stepped on the gas instead of the break,her car went right up this guys driveway, and smashed this poor guy car through the other end of it!!

I ran over to the scene, as many did who saw this,it was a nice day,no rain, we ran over,some called 911 others were just looking on.Without so much as even a thought,I ran over to her,her head was bleeding real bad! I slapped my arms around her, put my hand on her head,and said in the Name of Jesus bleeding stop now!! Well The lady looked up at me.Some people held there hands to there mouth,and yes brother,the bleedding stopped immediatly as I called on the Lord!

The ambulance came and tended to her,I went home,she ended up being all right!! thank God! As I got to my bedroom Holy Spirit said to me deep within me.well??Did I forsake you as you have thought? humm? Did I forget my word even though you have forgotton me? I love you!

Was my death for you on the cross not enough for you to come to me? What more can I do mark, that you will come near me,to do even as I have done unto you,to love,to care? Do I need to create such a tough scene for you,that you just have to fall on your knees to me? Well do I??

You lack because you believe you do,as easy as it was for you to belittle yourself,and me in you for that matter,is it not time to build yourself up, and me as well in you? Then do so,and stop with all the reasons you can't,because by saying and doing this you are saying I am not big enough, nor powerful enough to take care of you!

Is there anything to difficult for me to do in you and with you?? Jer 32:27 By your life you yourself are showing others my power are limited?? How can you do this to me, when I gave myself for you? Be a man mark, have courage,get with it! I have told you before! Matt 11:28-30 Come to who mark?? Look to who mark? Take MY yoke why mark? Mark if you really believe I love you,and care for you which you surly should!! Then is it not time to act like it? Then Mark DO SO!! amen!

HUMM ah well I ah,oh you are right!! of course you always are! Lord I humbly ask you to help me in this,I have been lazy,and I really need your encourgment, and help,I repent, I thank you for your loving kindness to me,and expect you to continue keeping your Word to me,even though I lack so much in you,in Jesus name amen.

Then I started getting into pray,and reading the Word daily, and within 30 days,why brother!! I was a new man in Christ! And you can be to!! All things are possible with Jesus in us!! luke 1:37!! repent and then move forward,give the devil a kick in his behind,and move on to be the man of God you so want to be!!

My prayers are with you!! So look out now!! The rollercoaster ride is about to come to a abrupt stop,it is time to get off the ride, and get back in the race with us!! Our hands will help you!! we love you in Christ!! For apart from the tree,which is Jesus, you have learned what I, and many others had to find out the hard way,we are nothing without Jesus!! amen!! blessing to you Bro!

 

[abraham]

Seeker of Jesus,

It sounds like the Lord has convicted your heart about some things and is pressing you to get back on track. It's good that you're seeing this. The concern is if you weren't convicted at all about it. So there are still some good seeds in that heart. I have been where you are where you do not want to read the Scriptures and you know better, but you need to press through (no matter how much you may struggle with it). The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Based off what the Lord's already shown you, it may be helpful to seek the Scriptures and see what the Lord says about what actually produces good fruit and why. Do a study on this.

The other important thing is to grow in learning to hear God's voice or His Holy Spirit, so that He can lead you out of temptations and guide you into who He's called you to be. Another suggestion is, get rid of all the stolen stuff - as this can have spiritual ties to it (as a result of the sin) and cause a bondage in the spirit realm that may be holding you back. This will be difficult to do but hey, the price of Christ is worth it over the price of the natural things that you may have lost (Acts 19:18-20; Philippians 3:7-11).

I pray that the Lord would give you more strength in Him to overcome; that you would grow in understanding the ways of the Lord - the fear of Him, greater discernment, peace, and eyes to see what the Spirit of the Lord is showing you and ears to hear what He is saying. I also pray that He would cut the ties of the enemy that are holding you back and that you would grow in yearning to know more of Him.

j_sp

What he had said is true. When you walk this world on your own it only leads you to destruction, trust in him and not your own understanding because he will direct your path.

God is love, Abraham

 

[Cherubpuff]

Seeker Of Jesus,

did you you know that in some countries downloading movies music and such is not illegal? Im in no way trying to justify it as i do the same.

Do you remember back in the day when we would record movies on vhs and record songs on tapes? well its the same thing as downloading. The stuff on them tapes were subject to copyright back then as they are now but does the fact they were on a different media format make it any less wrong back then? This is something which i believe many people fail to recognize and if it were a sin then i believe many christians would still be guilty of it today unless of course they asked forgiveness...I honestly think its not an issue unless you're distributing the material or making physical copies and selling them.

I honestly think that if thats whats beating at your heart then its something that can be defeated easily. I gave up porn with one thought when the holy spirit convicted me. Its been very rough living without porn and being single..very rough. but if i can do it with porn you can do it with downloads.

Thats just my opinion and if you feel you're convicted by the holy spirit then pray over it and post back here to let us know how its going.

 

[rlowe]

Praying for spiritual drive & passion + strength from God - for you.

Praying for salvation for your entire family.

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[Seeker Of Jesus]

It's been a month & 2 days since i last wrote. Everything was fine up untill 2 days ago. I did one of the worst sins a believer can do, what that sin is i wont say cause i'm ashamed ( it has nothing to do with what i first wrote when i first started this thread) but what i can say is that i deliberately did it, not once but 3 times, this isn't the first time i've deliberately done this either. The worst part of this is that i know The Truth, I know Jesus, I know the Gospel, I understand what He did for me. By the Grace and mercy of God i have been givin the knowledge of the Truth, we all have. Today i read Hebrews 10:26, and i re read Hebrews 6:4-6. I feel like it's over. I feel like in 1 year i destroyed myself and have reserved a place for myself in the lake of fire. There is no hope for me. There is nothing any of you can say or do that will help. This is something that only God Himself can help but i doubt He will. Not because He can't but because He will simply choose not too, why do i think this way you might ask, it's because of what i did and what i kept doing deliberately knowing the truth and He is still Just, Loving, Kind, & Good in doing so.

 

[Still_CrYiNg]

Hi Seeker of Jesus. I know what you are going through. Maybe not specifically, but I have been where you are now, and still somewhat am. Around 6 months ago I committed the worst sin of my life - no doubt the worst sin I will ever commit for as long as I live.

I had been out of the will of God for quite some time. I was saved as a young girl (around 8 years old) but had grown away from a close walk with God. Well, this sin brought me very close to him. Back in January I had no where to turn, no one to talk to - I was completely alone (or felt like I was). God was with me, and had been the whole time. Our God is more loving and forgiving than any of us can imagine. None of us sinners here on Earth can even fathom the amount of unconditional love He has for us.

During the months following my shameful act, I drew very close with God in prayer. I re-dedicated my life to Him and wanted to become a better person. He has been very forgiving, yet each time I pray, I still ask for His forgiveness. I will never get over what I did, EVER, but I pray to the Lord very often to get some peace of mind. I know that He has forgiven me - it's myself that I am having a hard time gaining forgiveness from.

You said in your post that nothing we can say or do will help you - I understand, I've been there. I just wanted to respond and tell you that our God loves us and he will forgive you.

This is a quote a very good friend of mine gave me when I was going through my worst times a few months ago:


"Know this...GOD IS BIGGER, than anything you're going through, trust him...KEEP YOUR TRUST IN HIM"

That saying helped me keep my sanity.

ray:

 

[Thiscrosshurts]

GOD IS LOVE,you are being tormented by religious spirits who want you to focus on the flesh.

Mat 23:15 Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for you compass sea and land to make one proselyte, and when he is made, you make him twofold more the child of hell than yourselves

You tried to clean up your act over a year ago and some little dark entities are upset.

Stop listening to your brain,tell it to shut up.
Then turn your eyes upon Jesus,look full in his wonderful face and the things of this world grow strangely dim.=Sin is boring if it keeps you from the knowledge of his Glory.

Jesus said consider the cost,how could even know what the cost is until you try.Don't be so down on yourself.
Please read the story of the prodigal son and remember that he blew his inheritance and the father still loved him and met him halfway when he attempted to turn and come home.

If you had a son how would you handle it.
It is the goodness of God that is supposed to lead us to repentance.
Perfect love casts out all fear and torment.
God is that perfect love.

 

[Brighthouse]

Seeker, you forgot one very inportant chapter and verse!! Hebrews 6:10!! The only time that we reserve ourself for this!! Is when we no longer wish to repent! I talked to sheep in the forum about hope!! Please look at this as well bro! Remember the woman CAUGHT!!!! in adultery!! And she had every reason under the law to be stoned!! AH!! But the Love of Jesus is just as much for you my brother as it was for her!! Never forget this either!! John 8:1-11 GO!!! and sin no more!! amen!

 

[rlowe]

Without God's help & strength no human on earth could keep from sinning & most would keep making the same mistakes/sins.

When one 1st comes to Christ Jesus, God's son, Satan tries his best to get them to permanently turn from God.

We are not pentalized for our struggles & with Christ & His host of angels backing us, we CAN succeed.

The verses you mentioned in Hebrews I think was talking about someone who refused to change their life & ways with God's help.

The only sin the Bible says is unforgivable is blasphemy of the Holy Spirit.

If you ask God to help you change your life & ways now, it's not too late.