Mrs.Davis I sure believe like you,most all of us have been through much of the same pain as you have! For a while as a baby believer we know God's hand is not only holding us but we can even feel his presence most days in our life.Then it happens!! God hides!!( Isaiah 45:15) We look around,and where has he gone? Then feeling and emotion look to put the amplify this!! Jesus never leaves or forsakes us sis!
But there is a purpose to his hiding, most never understand! As we all know God is all knowing,but we are not,nor is the devil,so the Lord hides for a while from us to see how we handle the time we are finally being allowed to mature and grow.(2Chronicles 32:31) As we see from verse 24 Hezekiah became very ill but his heart had become proud( verse 25) In verse 26 he humbles himself. You see he got so used to God,he took him for granted,he stopped being thankful! ( 1 thess 5:18!!!!) The very will of God for our lives,each day of our lives!!
Now scan down to verse 31!!God left him alone only to test him! Same with us to sis! That HE might,or in this case that we might know all that is within our own heart!!( 2 cor 13:5!!) It is easy to forget this, is it not sis?? hehe When you remember how thankful you are now, like you used to be,God will show himself again to you. It is our choice in the matter sis! But the sooner you go back to reading his Word daily, praying daily,and most importantly acknowledge him!! in all areas of your life like you use to!!( proverbs 3:6)
You will understand the test to mature sis! Took me about 2 weeks of remembering!!But God's love rewards those who trust upon his word,and not upon feeling and emotion to get into his word!!( heb 11:6) May this encourage you sister and i learned much from the Lord as well in my own life,when I forgot! You will find something out sis!! You will never forget ever again!! amen!! And so you mature and grow!! amen! DAILY!!