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The reason why I ask this, is because I've prayed about it to the lord to correct me on things for what I sin but even I may not know because I know it is the culture I grew up out of and may not find it bad even it is and I discover two new sin that I been doing, a new one I discover yesterday and I guest last week or few days ago.. But I know I'm still struggle on one sin the most that is the most hardest one of all but not really understanding what humble is for me and that hold pridefull stuff because I think that I guest that I’m guessing to what I think it is, but it is scary to think I’m must be deceiving myself but the most part to which I fail again today on is that hardest sin of all which my addiction problems, but um being a Christian is not easy for me but even for I wish is be to become easy but is really not which it been really tough but that really made me think of saying " Oh, Am I ready to die but if I die how am I sure I‘m going to heaven" and that question dose sound scary because I think half of the time that I don‘t what I am doing and may have sin or something.
I know I may need allot of prayer but also I recognize that I need to pray more for myself also and I hardly don’t pray or read my bible as much as I use to but then I know back in the day I’ve seem a bit the same but it hard to live in a house hold where everybody seem like demon possesses, I think? But what ever, its been hard of everything, everything got to be hard on me sometimes, is like you know something really good post to happen such good blessing coming my way and even in my deliverance thought it is not there just yet, but man that’s when Satan shows up to stop by and him going and keep me in bondage and put into a place of growing slower and pressure and going forth of being under attack and make it more harder before I make a slip to fail. I want to be successful Christian of those things of my life and be free from it and take a smooth walk, but I guest I have a un normal Christian walk right now...:embarasse
I know I may need allot of prayer but also I recognize that I need to pray more for myself also and I hardly don’t pray or read my bible as much as I use to but then I know back in the day I’ve seem a bit the same but it hard to live in a house hold where everybody seem like demon possesses, I think? But what ever, its been hard of everything, everything got to be hard on me sometimes, is like you know something really good post to happen such good blessing coming my way and even in my deliverance thought it is not there just yet, but man that’s when Satan shows up to stop by and him going and keep me in bondage and put into a place of growing slower and pressure and going forth of being under attack and make it more harder before I make a slip to fail. I want to be successful Christian of those things of my life and be free from it and take a smooth walk, but I guest I have a un normal Christian walk right now...:embarasse
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