Ah Gelly
May our dear Lord Jesus comfort and sustain you, his child.
That is the best thing you could ever do, give it all over to Him, but give it all, I found this a hard thing to master at first, I always took some back agian if not it all, but once we learn to leave it at the cross, that is were He will then work it out for us, because He see's our trust and faith in Him.
I pray you will receive a full recovery, Gelly, the Master knows best, His ways aren't our ways, so long as we are in agreement no matter the outcome, He will reward us, wether we receive our reward on this earth or in heaven.
Isn't it just marvelous to be able to leave it on the alter of Christ, along with ourself, nothing in my hands I bring, only to the cross I cling.
The great Burden Bearer of all time, and we are His children the child of a King.
May you have His peace, and know His love surrounding you at all times.
Im glad to you found this place. Please stay.