That might be true.
But there were many right motives for which I was praying to - like breaking my adult content addiction, my severe depression and stupid thoughts that come to my brain all the time.
I wanted Jesus to remove them too but did not work for me.
I cannot fight too much like a warrior to get rid of these temptations thats why i asked God for help.
Its been more than a year yet my addictions are same. Even though I broke it for one month with drugs, but after I stopped taking them my addictions came back. These drugs also make me feel terrible.
Regarding study, I did gave my best to study, I am weak in maths so I asked god to help me, but i did not got any help.
But i would say he does miraculously make me pass in some subjects that I thought i could not pass. Anyway, this time he did not help me.
Its good that you met your friend online, but you know sometimes we need people at the time when we are lowest, I have no one to talk to, and the ones I talk with all have selfish motives.
R, it sounds to me like you need to consult with a competent psychologist who holds at least a Masters Degree. Do not waste your time on the so-called
Christian Counselors for they may harm you instead of helping. I am understanding your situation more than you can know. You are carrying quite a heavy load, a tough burden. Our emotional, mental situation can become so out of sync that it hinders our spiritual side of life.
Who prescribed the medication for you that made you feel so terrible? Was it psychiatrist or a General Practioner who is like what we call a Primary Care physician. At my age, I take numerous medications and occasionally, a medication either does not work, or the side effects are so bad my doctor changed my prescription to another drug. If you have severe depression, that needs to be taken care of as soon as possible.
I will suggest another approach to you. We do need our spiritual side tended to and often it is not our own Pastor who is suitable for that. Maybe contact several other Pastors in your area where you can hopefully find a
compassionate man to listen to your plea for help. I will tell you a major mistake well-meaning Pastors often make. Two passages are often thrown at people, and are taken totally out of context. I’ll give the two and explain what they pertain to.
“I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” (Phil 4:13, KJV) This is a misused verse that can make you more depressed! I thank God for the Puritans who were spiritually wise men of God. Matthew Poole clarifies the meaning of this verse: “we are not to understand it absolutely, but restrictively to the subject matter he had before mentioned in the precedent verses, intimating he could by the Lord’s help use well both prosperity and adversity: or, all those things the Lord called him to and put him upon. Not, as the papists urge, that any mere man since the fall is able in this life perfectly to keep the commandments of God.” That verse is meant to be understood
in its context.
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13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
14 Wherefore, my dearly beloved, flee from idolatry.” (1Cor 10:13-14, KJV)
Religious ‘do-gooders’ love to quote v13, but they totally ignore the context which is summed up in v14. This is talking about fleeing from idolatry, avoid being seduced by the idols. Keep you eyes on Jesus instead of your perceived sexual additions. Take Jesus’ words to heart: “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matt 11:28-30, KJV) Remember, the Apostle Paul struggled with sin also, read Romans 7, beginning at v14. Notice the answer given by Paul:
“O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin. There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.” (Rom 7:24-25; 8:1-2 KJV)
I understand you watch pornography probably along with a lot of
naughty hand work. Apparently, you are not going out chasing down every man or woman you can find willing to have sex with you. So, at 23-years-of-age, you are probably not too far off what is typical. I’m not making light of sexual sin, but in our day, when the modern translations have substituted “sexual immorality” in the place of “fornication”, religious hypocrites will put things in the sexually immoral that you won’t find in the Bible. Far too often, the preachers, teachers who demand overly strict sexual practice, are secretly the worse offenders. I’m going to send another Reply next with help from another Puritan. But, keep the following in mind from the words of King David.
“For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him. As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us. Like as a father pitieth his children, so the LORD pitieth them that fear him. For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.” (Ps 103:11-14, KJV)
Read the entire Psalm.
