i woke up from sleep and they told me that it was only seven.I went over to my mum and she lay my head on her tighs...
I was sobing.she inquired to know the matter and asked her this question...
"mum, will we all be dead on the last day?"
She looked into my heavy eyes and my sad face, she told me that for those who had faith in Christ,they lived...but for those who did otherwise, will burn in hell.
I had been told at 7 that hell was a fire that kept on burning and burning.A fire hotter than its likes,designed for evil doers.
"mum, im afraid" i said.
She perceived that i had experienced my first nightmare and then she patted me in the back as if i were a month old baby, and i slept off.
This was the last beatiful memory which i had of my mother and it will always be with me forever...
I graduated frm school at the age of 26 and met my man.We had 3 beatiful daughters and two lovely sons.oh my!i can still recall the smile on Guy's face...One day, Guy went out to get us some food frm the restaurant-it was Mike's birthday.I waited but he wouldn't come home!He just wouldn't.That was the last of my dear husband.Guy abandoned us.
Two years later, my daughters Anna and Andrea lost their lives in a plane crash while coming home for holidays.I dont know...i guess i couldn't take it anymore and so i tried to commit suicide, but the Lord won't let me. I tried severally and failed.But just when i was beginning to recover, Adrian's gang activities had gotten him killed in an open fire with the police.Georgina...she died two weeks later having suffered from breast cancer.I was as good as dead and shot my self entirely from the world.
Pastor Brian intervened...he said to me that in the desert of grief and pain God gives an oasis of grace.He kept me going on and on through the sorrows of my life,through his words prayers and union meetings.He brightened my day.I called for Paul and Jacob to stay with me for now i feared the worst.As it turned out, Jacob died four years later in a road accident and now...I was with Paul in His last moments.
"mum,its okay.its okay to go.i see a light beyond this darkness.The Lord we serve wants me to join him" as he tried to console me.I wept on and on past three hours but no amount of weeping could change the situation.I was told to leave so the operation would commence.I prayed for Paul's life, i begged the Lord...
Today i live a happy woman in her eighties with my son and grand children.I thank the Lord.I realized what i should have done in those years of sorrow.I shouldn't heve askeed The Lord "why" but rather "who".Who are you Father...You are my rock and my fortress and my deliverer.The God of peace will always have his motives and it is not for us to question.The scriptures always said that there are trials and tribulations in the lives of the children of God...we have only to be still and obey.
Each answer, puzzled "why"
from doubt or dead that grows
finds answer in this thought:
i know not, but He knows.
I am a satisfied...Glory to God in the highest!
Psalm 42:
Thankyou all.
I was sobing.she inquired to know the matter and asked her this question...
"mum, will we all be dead on the last day?"
She looked into my heavy eyes and my sad face, she told me that for those who had faith in Christ,they lived...but for those who did otherwise, will burn in hell.
I had been told at 7 that hell was a fire that kept on burning and burning.A fire hotter than its likes,designed for evil doers.
"mum, im afraid" i said.
She perceived that i had experienced my first nightmare and then she patted me in the back as if i were a month old baby, and i slept off.
This was the last beatiful memory which i had of my mother and it will always be with me forever...
I graduated frm school at the age of 26 and met my man.We had 3 beatiful daughters and two lovely sons.oh my!i can still recall the smile on Guy's face...One day, Guy went out to get us some food frm the restaurant-it was Mike's birthday.I waited but he wouldn't come home!He just wouldn't.That was the last of my dear husband.Guy abandoned us.
Two years later, my daughters Anna and Andrea lost their lives in a plane crash while coming home for holidays.I dont know...i guess i couldn't take it anymore and so i tried to commit suicide, but the Lord won't let me. I tried severally and failed.But just when i was beginning to recover, Adrian's gang activities had gotten him killed in an open fire with the police.Georgina...she died two weeks later having suffered from breast cancer.I was as good as dead and shot my self entirely from the world.
Pastor Brian intervened...he said to me that in the desert of grief and pain God gives an oasis of grace.He kept me going on and on through the sorrows of my life,through his words prayers and union meetings.He brightened my day.I called for Paul and Jacob to stay with me for now i feared the worst.As it turned out, Jacob died four years later in a road accident and now...I was with Paul in His last moments.
"mum,its okay.its okay to go.i see a light beyond this darkness.The Lord we serve wants me to join him" as he tried to console me.I wept on and on past three hours but no amount of weeping could change the situation.I was told to leave so the operation would commence.I prayed for Paul's life, i begged the Lord...
Today i live a happy woman in her eighties with my son and grand children.I thank the Lord.I realized what i should have done in those years of sorrow.I shouldn't heve askeed The Lord "why" but rather "who".Who are you Father...You are my rock and my fortress and my deliverer.The God of peace will always have his motives and it is not for us to question.The scriptures always said that there are trials and tribulations in the lives of the children of God...we have only to be still and obey.
Each answer, puzzled "why"
from doubt or dead that grows
finds answer in this thought:
i know not, but He knows.
I am a satisfied...Glory to God in the highest!
Psalm 42:
Thankyou all.
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