comingjoy
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This was written 7 years ago. I just came acrossed it again and wanted to share how so often we try to go it alone. I still have not gotten it down right but I am learning to let our Father help and to go to HIM first. May you be blessed and encouraged by what God has shown me and wants to show you
God Was With Me!
BY Comingjoy March 2001
God is always with us no matter what we go through, HE is there through the great times and HE is there during the difficult times. All we have to do is go to HIM. When I found out that my 16-year-old son got his girlfriend pregnant HE was there. I prayed but chose to go it alone, If only I went to HIM. When I had to fill out a Code sheet on my 11-year-old daughter I went to HIM. HE led the way. HE held me when I cried as I made a written statement that I do not wish to have her resuscitated if she stopped breathing. HE comforted me. When my 16-year old took off from home, once again I tried it own my own. HE let me try. When convicted with the fact that I will be held accountable with the raising of my children, HE showed me the worldly influence I was allowing in their lives and mine. HE helped me to make a stand and say no more to family members not saved. To make a stand and say God comes first. HE held me as I cried and rocked back and forth to the family’s reaction. I cried Father I no longer have a family. HE said you have a bigger family waiting for you here. HE then showed me someone worse off than me. HE shared with me that my younger brother was diagnosed with HIV one year earlier. HE held me close and forgave me, as I was feeling sorry for myself.
When the grandchild was born and taken out of state within a week, I once again prayed and tried to do it my way. HE said let me help. I replied I have it under control. I didn’t. Why didn’t I let my father help? When my 16-year-old son ran away and lived on the street. I was devastated. I cried day and night. HE was there holding HIS open arms out to me. I just sat there. HE sent a friend to comfort me. I turned away. I prayed every day for understanding but did not take HIM at HIS word. HE forgave me. When my 14-year old son said no more, I do not like the rules of the house I want to go live with my dad, I let him. I did not pray. I turned away from HIM. HE stood there hurt yet willing to forgive as once again HE stretched out HIS arms to comfort to me. I was not ready. My husband’s grandfather died shortly afterwards. He had to go to the funeral, I was left alone to deal with the grief of two of my children gone. God said but you are not alone. I am here and have been with you all the way. Come to ME and I will heal your sorrow. I went to HIM! Throughout this one year God was with me and so often I tried to go it alone. It would only be when I was brought to my knees that I could see how many times HE held out HIS hands to help. To this day God has given me a peace that only HE can give. I know longer worry endlessly over my unsaved family. I pray for them. I do not cry over the boys who left home, but praise God for the two children I still have at home and that know the LORD. One day at a time my LORD shows me HE is with me all the time. HE never left me, I left HIM!
I am trusting in HIM. I am letting HIM lead the way. HE will provide me with all I need no matter what comes my way. As for me and my house we will serve the LORD!!! JOSHUA 24:15
God Was With Me!
BY Comingjoy March 2001
God is always with us no matter what we go through, HE is there through the great times and HE is there during the difficult times. All we have to do is go to HIM. When I found out that my 16-year-old son got his girlfriend pregnant HE was there. I prayed but chose to go it alone, If only I went to HIM. When I had to fill out a Code sheet on my 11-year-old daughter I went to HIM. HE led the way. HE held me when I cried as I made a written statement that I do not wish to have her resuscitated if she stopped breathing. HE comforted me. When my 16-year old took off from home, once again I tried it own my own. HE let me try. When convicted with the fact that I will be held accountable with the raising of my children, HE showed me the worldly influence I was allowing in their lives and mine. HE helped me to make a stand and say no more to family members not saved. To make a stand and say God comes first. HE held me as I cried and rocked back and forth to the family’s reaction. I cried Father I no longer have a family. HE said you have a bigger family waiting for you here. HE then showed me someone worse off than me. HE shared with me that my younger brother was diagnosed with HIV one year earlier. HE held me close and forgave me, as I was feeling sorry for myself.
When the grandchild was born and taken out of state within a week, I once again prayed and tried to do it my way. HE said let me help. I replied I have it under control. I didn’t. Why didn’t I let my father help? When my 16-year-old son ran away and lived on the street. I was devastated. I cried day and night. HE was there holding HIS open arms out to me. I just sat there. HE sent a friend to comfort me. I turned away. I prayed every day for understanding but did not take HIM at HIS word. HE forgave me. When my 14-year old son said no more, I do not like the rules of the house I want to go live with my dad, I let him. I did not pray. I turned away from HIM. HE stood there hurt yet willing to forgive as once again HE stretched out HIS arms to comfort to me. I was not ready. My husband’s grandfather died shortly afterwards. He had to go to the funeral, I was left alone to deal with the grief of two of my children gone. God said but you are not alone. I am here and have been with you all the way. Come to ME and I will heal your sorrow. I went to HIM! Throughout this one year God was with me and so often I tried to go it alone. It would only be when I was brought to my knees that I could see how many times HE held out HIS hands to help. To this day God has given me a peace that only HE can give. I know longer worry endlessly over my unsaved family. I pray for them. I do not cry over the boys who left home, but praise God for the two children I still have at home and that know the LORD. One day at a time my LORD shows me HE is with me all the time. HE never left me, I left HIM!
I am trusting in HIM. I am letting HIM lead the way. HE will provide me with all I need no matter what comes my way. As for me and my house we will serve the LORD!!! JOSHUA 24:15
