I'm giving up on God. I feel like something i am doing, or something i am is wrong, and keeping Him away from me. I would love more than anything to be a strong christian...dreams die. Suicidal thoughts are starting to come back to my head. I use to cut myself, and the only thing that is stopping me is getting a good ol' talking to about it, and breaking a promise... I dont know how long either of those will hold up.