Please pray that God will strengthen me while I wait upon my breakthrough. I am waiting for God to restore my family, husband, son, finances, place of dwelling, my transportation, my whole life. I need to feel God more than ever right now. It seems like I am fighting with my emotions all the time. I pray for God to help me when I feel like this. My husband still talks with the exgrlfrnd almost everyday. She is the one calling him 90% of the time. I was feeling very hurt yesterday. I told my husband what if I had an exboyfriend calling me everyday, how would he feel. He said he wouldn't like it very well. I understand they have known each other since gradeschool and they can talk like if they were brother & sister, but I still know her intentions and it bothers me that my husband still continues to talk to her all the time. I know he knows it bothers me and he feels bad but for some reason he can't stop it. Its like an addiction. I am asking God to please break this bond & yoke between my husband and his ex girlfrnd, and help me not to focus on my husband. One thing I have learned through all this pain is that God is the one who really loves me. He is the only one I can trust. I trust God its just I lose my focus and end of getting my feelings hurt etc. I guess its just the spirit wrestling with the flesh. Its hard not to let the flesh creep in.
