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Back Ground: My son is severely non verbal 9 year old Autistic very loving and a blessing. My wife of 25 years is sick with stag three bone cancer multiple myeloma.
All my life I have out others before me. Mainly, im no saint, the fly in the ointment at times. A wineskin in the smoke. My problem is for the longest time I have put others before me. My bloodlines have breed people like me for generations I have discovered when hunting for clues to my past family history years ago.
This constant battle has worn on me but Im army trained to keep going no stoping. I had skipped a few mental health appointments went my wife started her chemo. Decided to get to one on the 20th last month. Got hit from behind by a van while crossing the street legally. no damage serious surprising I was knock out for a moment. Some ache in knee and leg met with a lawyer yesterday.
Long short I set up appointment for pain doctor to help determine what is causing the pain. I planned on going wanted to go I use to walk alot now half distance has me looking for my aspirin but when I woke this morning I felt guilty that I was going to do something ;like this for my self when so many others needs needed to be done. We are a poor family so I have to do alot. What is it that causes duty to others before duty to self.
All my life I have out others before me. Mainly, im no saint, the fly in the ointment at times. A wineskin in the smoke. My problem is for the longest time I have put others before me. My bloodlines have breed people like me for generations I have discovered when hunting for clues to my past family history years ago.
This constant battle has worn on me but Im army trained to keep going no stoping. I had skipped a few mental health appointments went my wife started her chemo. Decided to get to one on the 20th last month. Got hit from behind by a van while crossing the street legally. no damage serious surprising I was knock out for a moment. Some ache in knee and leg met with a lawyer yesterday.
Long short I set up appointment for pain doctor to help determine what is causing the pain. I planned on going wanted to go I use to walk alot now half distance has me looking for my aspirin but when I woke this morning I felt guilty that I was going to do something ;like this for my self when so many others needs needed to be done. We are a poor family so I have to do alot. What is it that causes duty to others before duty to self.
