Dreams and nightmares

[learning2love]

I'm a paramedic and early in July I responded for a call that ended up being for a rape. 3 days later, I started having dreams and nightmares. I've experienced sexual trauma, but there are things related I've never told anybody. I'm thinking the call has triggered the past experiences, and is causing the dreams/nightmares.

I talked to a chaplain at work about a month ago. In his opinion, he said there were elements of the dreams that were from my past and that I needed to talk about it. I wasn't ready then, but I am now to talk it out and move on. I've contacted him several times since, with the most recent being yesterday, to say I wanted to talk, as he had offered. But I still haven't heard anything.

Last week, I contacted my small group leaders. He has a history of drug/alcohol addiction. And she has had an abortion, given a baby up for adoption, and has been raped. So I feel like they "get it" when it comes to baggage. I was supposed to talk to them last Thursday night, but she was sick due to her pregnancy.

I contacted another place a couple weeks ago and the lady i talked to was on vacation last week. But she hasn't emailed me back either about talking.

I had a counselor that does EMDR and I've emailed him and told him about the dreams I'm having.....and there's no response. After the call, I told him about the call, but it was before the dreams started. He said it sounded like I did everything I could for the girl. But thats it pretty much.

Just feel like I'm loosing this battle in my head. I get maybe 4-5 hrs of sleep a night, and that isn't restful. I've reached out, yet keep hitting brick walls. On my own, I've tried journaling, prayer, reading my bible.......and a couple of times even alcohol...I know, not the best coping mechanism lol. Please don't lecture me on that!

I just don't know what to do. And I'm tired.

 

[Brad Huber]

Pray daily for help, especially for at least 20 minutes before bed. First of all, just talk to God, just like you talked to us here about the situation. Then ask for better rest, and for help in the dreams/nightmares you are having. God is able to reach us in our dreams if you have faith enough. God has often intervened in my dreams helping me, but you must have faith that He is able. Then the last part is the hardest. You must accept that you were not at fault in either situation, but that you are still a beautiful child of God, and worthy of the same glory that all christians have which is better than any earthly glory we can attain. Then last of all, you must forgive those who are the abusers. This part can be very hard to do, but its important to forgive others that we ourselves might be forgiven. You will be healed from this problem... You WILL be!! Have faith in the great healer, great counselor that is the Lord!!

 

[Quasicentennium]

"The church song in my memory: All things bright and beautiful, all creatures great and small... All things wise and wonderful the Lord God made them all:. has become like a scratched record that skips and replays just these first two verses since those childhood years in the early 1970s, my first time being a very young church visitor with my parents. Today songs of worship have become pop rock/ country style or even rap/hip hop for our present young generation such as Australia's one of the most popular music groups - Hillsong United. May Jesus spiritually shine light to every corner of darkness in your heart with songs of worship new or classically old like the one just mentioned above. My journey throughout the years of being Christian has it's ups and downs, and there were times that church apathy had replaced with the marvels of blu-ray movies and full high definition plasma TVs for a couple of entertainment-rich years. Still, I felt the urge that my couch-potato habits had taken a toll on my health and since Jesus is my healer, I decided to revisit church and find out how Jesus is able to keep our brothers and sisters of Christ positive, even while holding back all our negative experiences at the back of our minds while staying silent in church most of the time as we listen to God's supernatural words from the Word of God being spoken from the pastor's voice over the microphone. Much more than ordinary words, God's Word is miraculously transforming spiritual-wise so that the peace of Jesus can keep our non-criminal positive attitudes strong inside our faithful hearts - even if our earth-born minds and bodies are still battling with sin-causing negative emotional gangsters of sin from Satan. Patience, love and joy will be forever victorious once Jesus has returned in his second coming to defeat Satan and to delete sin that will no longer be employed to turn our lives upside down, once we are transformed with brand new minds and bodies of Christ, like Jesus himself, where youth, beauty and health -along with failure-proof intelligence - will not make us stumble or become accident-prone. May God's futuristic most massive community-built city: the Kingdom of God on a new Earth become a dust-free, pollution-free, insect pest-free, especially crime-free healthy environment for all classes poor, middle and high as we pray daily that his kingdom become a strong remembrance or reminder in our hearts until our victorious Jesus returns.:*:.
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