Obviously you won't feel better until your repent of refusing to accept Jesus' plan for your future. Then, surrender to the will of God, get back up, and walk in the Spirit. I love You and will be praying for your situation.Once again, I hardened my heart against the Lord, lost love for Him and feeling of His presence because of my refusal to accept His plan for me, a plan which would benefit others. Please, pray for me, so He would heal my heart and emotions, I want to love Him again! Thank you all so much!