Furious_Love
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- Joined
- Aug 23, 2005
- Messages
- 231
Hi,
Do you want to give up drugs or alcohol — or both?
Do you feel desperate to be rid of the scourge that has invaded your life?
Is it affecting you so deeply that you feel you can’t cope?
Do you want to quit because your family needs you?
Does your heart ache to be set free from the bondage that haunts you?
These were the questions I asked myself constantly when I felt at my lowest, even while I was still using and drinking. Many times I would weep as I drove to get my next fix, knowing I was about to hurt myself again. I felt condemned, believing I was failing God and being a poor Christian. Even being here on this website, I wanted to ask for prayer to help with my addiction — but I still tried to look like an “upstanding Christian.”
Over 14 years, I admitted myself to rehab three times, each time hoping it would finally set me free. But each time I came out, I started again. I wasn’t getting to the root cause — that took many years, and a lot of pain, before I finally saw what was really driving me. Wisdom came at a price; for me, it didn’t necessarily come with age.
By the grace of God, I have now been clean for 8½ years. It wasn’t easy — the temptations were real, the triggers were everywhere, and some days I didn’t feel like I had the will to overcome. But I learned I didn’t have to fight it alone.
“No temptation has overtaken you except
such as is common to man; but God is faithful,
who will not allow you to be tempted
beyond what you are able, but with the temptation
will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.”
[1 Corinthians 10:13] [NKJV]
That verse became real to me when I learned to take it one day at a time and pray in the middle of the struggle: “Lord, help me right now.” Slowly, my heart began to change, and the hold of addiction began to break.
If you are struggling right now, please know you are not alone. God loves you, even in the middle of the mess, and He can give you the strength you need for the next step — just as He did for me.
This is not about judgment or shame. It’s about hope, healing, and freedom. If you’d like to share what you’re going through, or even just read along quietly, this space is open. Sometimes hearing “I’ve been there” makes the road a little less lonely.
You are not beyond help, and you are not beyond God’s love.
“Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'”
[Isaiah 41:10] [NKJV]
God Bless…
Furious_Love.
Do you want to give up drugs or alcohol — or both?
Do you feel desperate to be rid of the scourge that has invaded your life?
Is it affecting you so deeply that you feel you can’t cope?
Do you want to quit because your family needs you?
Does your heart ache to be set free from the bondage that haunts you?
These were the questions I asked myself constantly when I felt at my lowest, even while I was still using and drinking. Many times I would weep as I drove to get my next fix, knowing I was about to hurt myself again. I felt condemned, believing I was failing God and being a poor Christian. Even being here on this website, I wanted to ask for prayer to help with my addiction — but I still tried to look like an “upstanding Christian.”
Over 14 years, I admitted myself to rehab three times, each time hoping it would finally set me free. But each time I came out, I started again. I wasn’t getting to the root cause — that took many years, and a lot of pain, before I finally saw what was really driving me. Wisdom came at a price; for me, it didn’t necessarily come with age.
By the grace of God, I have now been clean for 8½ years. It wasn’t easy — the temptations were real, the triggers were everywhere, and some days I didn’t feel like I had the will to overcome. But I learned I didn’t have to fight it alone.
“No temptation has overtaken you except
such as is common to man; but God is faithful,
who will not allow you to be tempted
beyond what you are able, but with the temptation
will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.”
[1 Corinthians 10:13] [NKJV]
That verse became real to me when I learned to take it one day at a time and pray in the middle of the struggle: “Lord, help me right now.” Slowly, my heart began to change, and the hold of addiction began to break.
If you are struggling right now, please know you are not alone. God loves you, even in the middle of the mess, and He can give you the strength you need for the next step — just as He did for me.
This is not about judgment or shame. It’s about hope, healing, and freedom. If you’d like to share what you’re going through, or even just read along quietly, this space is open. Sometimes hearing “I’ve been there” makes the road a little less lonely.
You are not beyond help, and you are not beyond God’s love.
“Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'”
[Isaiah 41:10] [NKJV]
God Bless…
Furious_Love.
