Hey everyone my name is Andrew Speights I'm 24 yrs old I'll be 25 in June.

My life in Jesus started in July of 2011 an it's been a long hard road for me but I know its worth every second. For the past 1 1/2 years Im gonna be honest and say I didnt deserve his salvation when I first started but in this time frame it's the worst.

It started with my soon to be divorced wife. We werent healthy for eachother she had her own beliefs and I had mine. Which is only the beginning of my troubles I got addicted to getting high I cheated she cheated. We have a son together also but what ended everything was she became pregnant from another man. Which also Carrys dark structure.

Well when we split it was crazy and due to drugs or I'm not gonna blame it on them due to me not seeking the knowledge I need and feeding my spirit is really the cause I beleive. I was put into a dark place I started to question God and my mind was so wack I even had thoughts of trying to "sell" my soul which is dumb it's not mine to sell.

Im fresh born again it took the woman I'm with now being around a Jesus filled heart of hers helped mold me back to our father. It became OFFICAL two days ago when I found my soon to be wife's aunt dead from a overdose to really get me back. Being around all her family ones I barely knew crying. Something just went off and I could hear Jesus voice again. I'll tell ya he has been working amazingly over here not just in me but everyone.

I understand it's easy to look towards God when your at your lowest but I've been at my lowest before and it's never hit me like this since when I first received Jesus into my life. Everything started making sense Every scripture I've come across has been a lesson. It's like he brought me through all of this just to become stronger it's truly amazing. This is still brand new so i know I'm not out of satans grasp yet but after all the evil things I tried to do even after knowing and witnessing his love and then completely switching. For him to even speak to me again has been a blessing and I never wanna go back down that road.

There's still a lot of things I needa change I quit all drugs except the meds I'm prescribed. I also have a problem with weed it's not a addiction i just slipped up last night. My fiances cousins mom is the one who died he's been a buddy of mine for a while and smoking weed was a regular thing when we hung out. I was clean for over 2 weeks before I slipped up. I seen the hurt in his eyes and he asked me to smoke with him but I told him this was it for me. I should have just said no but he was torn apart. We actually conversated about changing our life's around a few weeks before all this. So I wrote him a testimonial letter after the smoke wore off an a few verses to help with mourning.

Anyways that's the shortest version of what gods doing in my life and what I'm trying to rebuke from. I'm joining this site because I'm determined to learn more and It would help a lot if this go round I have others I can speak to about God without being criticized and what not. I know with his power I can deal either way but I'm doing my best to make sure I never slip that far or hopefully never fall again. I'm sorry that my grammars bad guys not the sharpest tool in the shed when it comes to that.

Please keep my fiances family in yalls prayers. An if you want to you can pray for me but I ask that you give me a prayer request of your own. I'm unworthy and low but im trying. GOD BLESS