My brother,if you are willing to listen, then I am ready to help you. The horror of men and women all have,is something no one other then that person can understand,oh, they may look to,but unless I am the one in the shoes of one who has endured so much,how then can I help?
Please let me give you an example of another horror in ones life,and how this horror was made to go away,like a thief into the night. I served 2 Tours in Vietnam,I was unsaved at the time,like you, I had much anger! And like you with very good reason! I was one week away from joining the Detroit Tiger Baseball team,as I got invited to try out for them.
When I got drafted,I asked and begged them to let me be,so I could do something I worked so very hard to do! The answer was not even I am sorry,the answer was NO! So I went. The hatred and anger grew to such levels,not even a child was safe with me! I know what it is to take a life,when I had no reason to do so. There was no commandment from God I did not break.
There was no thought either. I was my ruler,and those who with me stayed far away from me.Then on a very stormy day 2 years after I got out of the service,not being able to hold any job for very long, because of the way they had made me,not being able to stay at home, because I was so evil,and so lost,Jesus found me in a mop closet in college in Williamsburg Kentucky.
And then like you I was ready to listen. Rom 12:9-21!! Please do read this. Of course the story is much longer then I will write here,but i know you see the point.I had to decide something my brother! Was I going to remain as I was,angry,full of hate,lover of only self? Or was I going to follow?( matt 16:24)
I had to learn how to first,this took many years!!I made a great deal of mistakes along the way as well. I had so much to learn,and still do! But the core of our Jesus is to love,we do this,because we have so great a need of this ourselves!We also have to learn how to as well.
It is not a wide road anymore we can travel on. For in a wide road, much can come against us from so many different angles. To speak this to you, is one thing,but to do it, is quite another!!I know this so well also! By hating those we have every reason to hate,we only hurt ourself.
I truly believe that the reason we also hate,is because of who we now believe we are as well.So why wouldn't we hate? Forgiveness comes to us,when we wish it to, for us first. For we my brother cannot give it, if we do not first have it to give.( matt 18:21-35) Each lesson we are willing to learn,we gain more and more help from our own needs, and desires.
For me Jesus was,and is the only way,he is my only truth,and I have given him my very life.Because he first gave me his!( john 15:11-17) Therfore since my Lord commands us to love,I must love,even those who do not deserve it!! WHY?? because Jesus first loved me! ( 1 John 4:19) You have not come here to be judged,you have come here seeking real truth!
This through Jesus in me I can give you.Holy Spirit must do the rest,but I will tell you this,he is more then able to do it!IF!!! You are willing to learn!As I myself was.And still am!We have so many wonderful brothers and sisters here among us,all have gone through great hardship,all have a story of great woe as well. But the question for you this day is,whether you wish to keep the hate,and stay so sad,or be willing to learn,even as we all do here.
No one has total truth my brother,no one has total answers,except one! Since we all know this to be true,this is why we not only seek our Lord Jesus,but follow him as best we can as well! We love you brother!Jesus has always loved you! Will you let him? We do have to allow this!
We can always stay as we are,we have that right. 3 ideas for you to consider after you decide on whether or not you wish to follow. 1. repent.2. receive Jesus as your Savior. and 3. find a good Bible Based Church where you can help others,grow,even as you wish to grow!
This is only a start,but this will get you into the race with the rest of us!( 1 Cor 9:23-27) I show you scripture because I never was a man who trusted anyone,I had to see for myself! I believe you to be this way as well
.For I know you have very good reason! Consider this.I am not telling you at all what to do!! You must decide.But I would be a sorry servant, if I did not care for you!I care because Jesus cared for me!!AND!!! He cares for you to!( John 15:16) You are chosen only if you are willing to become chosen. Blessing to you my brother.