Well, a while back my faith was tested to it's limits. I felt alone and scared. I actually almost turned from God and his plans. It involved someone that I know and someone that they met on the internet. This person was nearly twice the age of the person that I know. This scared me to death. You know you hear all those stories about people meeting someone online and then there is a rap case or murder. Well all of these things flashed into my head at once. Being a human my response was, well, something that I wasn't proud of. Not one of my finer moments. Well, that sent me spiraling into a deep depression because I was helpless, and couldn't do anything to stop what might possibly happen. Well, then I started to question God. That is my worst regret. I knew that there had to be a reason, but for the life of me I couldn't figure out why he would allow such a travesty to occur. Well, that then sent me on a quest for answers because now I wasn't sure what to think. After many days of pray and searching the scripture, I turned to a friend at church. She and another friend helped me immensely. I started studying with one of them, and he explained to me that it was alright that I thought and said those things because I had already asked for forgiveness for those sins. Then he explained that others have gone through situations where they also questioned God, and that the only way we could grow closer to him was to question him, but in a way that we are willing to accept his answers. Even David, the man after God's own heart, questioned God at times. This wasn't the first time my faith had been tested and I'm certain it won't be the last. This is just the toughest test that I have ever faced. I know that as long as I continue to seek out God, the Devil will be out there seeking me out, trying to break my faith. I'll just leave you with this one verse:
"I can do everything through him (Christ) who gives me strength."
Keep that verse in mind as you continue down your walk of faith with God towards Heaven. God Bless.