I've been going to church off and on, reading my devotional at bedtime, praying for friends and family, but praying harder for things I want. Recently I've had a change of heart. I've truly started denying myself everyday for Him. I realized that Jesus did not ask me to follow Him when I feel like it, but take up my cross and follow Him always. Jesus is with us all the time. Every single time I say, "Jesus, please be with me today, right now," and He says, "I am." What I've started doing is giving Him my full attention, which isn't an easy thing to do. I have a lot going on in my head and heart that I wish wasn't there. I get distracted all of the time. But with prayer Jesus is cleansing me and giving me His peace. I'm taking out a lot of the noise in my life, for example: if I'm listening to the radio and I hear Jesus whisper in my heart for his attention, I'll turn it off and treasure silence with Him as he mends my mind with his peace and wisdom. I think many people out there are deafened by all kinds of media and not seeking Jesus constantly. When I'm at work that I have to stay on task, but Jesus asks us to include Him into every detail of our lives. I work for the Lord! He is with me always, so I acknowledge that and ask for His will to be done in my life through The Holy Spirit. There is nothing else like Jesus' peace, what a beautiful part of His character. I pray I will seek Him as earnestly as possible every day and become like Him. Amen.