I am not entirely sure where to begin this post , so please forgive me if it goes on too long .

My journey has been a long one , but Im thankful that I have finally been set free through Jesus !!

I grew up in a not so religious home , although i spent my a few of my elementary school days in Catholic school through a voucher program . My parents wanted better for us kids I suppose and got us into the school , but usually did not go to church with us . ( we had to go to church to keep the program at the discounted rates )

I always knew there was God , but felt something missing from the relationship . Through most of my early teens I went to different types of churches looking for what was missing . I never did find it in any of them , through no fault of the Churches really . It was missing from myself . I knew nothing really of being saved and accepting Jesus as my saviour and into my heart .

I went through my life , feeling that missing thing and muddled through , pretty roughly at times .

I got married and divorced and remarried . I had 2 children . I moved a few times . I worked , all the normal stuff .

One day at work in early 2007 , we got a new manager at work . He was pretty cool and was genuinely a nice guy . Everyone enjoyed talking to him . I was talking to him one day about keeping an eye out for some of the Left Behind books that may come into our store . I had looked at these books a few times and passed them by , thinking "Oh these are just some Jesus books , wont be any good " I finally read the first one right before we were talking about them , and was shocked . I had no idea about anything to do with the book of revelation , or the rapture or being saved . I was talking to him about it , and found out he had been saved when he was about 19 . After that we pretty much talked every day , he was/ is so full of information . Thats when my journey really began towards walking with the Lord . I started looking stuff up on the internet , found this site and joined and began getting some of the information i was looking for all along . This is also when i really started having my life attacked by the enemy !!!

I wanted to be saved , but was scared at the same time . I had done and was still doing some things in my life, that i knew were wrong , but didnt really want to let go of . I felt like I had been too bad for the Lord to accept me . I figured there was no saving me ! Oh for once , im glad to have been wrong LOL

I kind of backed off of the Lord for awhile , and just went on about life . Still talking with my friend at work , but not doing much else . He started getting me more and more books to read , and a Bible and stuff like that , my husband was getting scared i was becoming some Jesus freak ! That made me back away some too .

We started having a hard time of things in every aspect of our lives , marriage , the kids , the bills , the house ! The enemy left nothing untouched , and attacked hard and strong , to keep me from accepting Jesus .

Ok i can see this post is already way longer than i wanted it to be , so ill try to sum it up faster LOL

My son got in trouble with the law , and is currently in a program run by the state . He just left a few weeks ago and will be there about a year .

My home has been foreclosed on , and will be up for sale at the end of November .

My husband left , and stated he did not want to work on our marriage anymore .

I was a mess , and in a big way ! I just had to find someone that could help me , and I did , Jesus .

I started coming back on to TJ , and making new friends and talking about the Word ! I learned so many things and came to my own conclusions about my life and Jesus . I finally accepted Jesus into my heart and life last month . I kept struggling with handing things over to Him though . Being a control freak I kept taking things back that i had handed to HIM already . Nothing was getting better , in fact I was making them worse , especially with my husband . The harder i pushed to save our marriage the more he grew angry !

I was talking in the chat room here one night , and was crying and soo upset , and i was being given the words to give it all up to the Lord . Not to worry but to let Him sort things out . I could no longer handle things on my own , I was so worn down , and weak emotionally and physically . I said ok i can not do this , Lord I am giving it to you today , and not taking it back , Your will will be done and i will accept it even if it isnt what i think i want . Give me the strength to get through whatever is coming in my path !

That was Friday night that just passed . Saturday I had to work , and i met my husband to drop off my daughter , and headed on to work . I was feeling a peace i had not yet experienced . At some point during the day a bracelet came into work , and on it was Proverbs 3:5-6 , Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him , and he will make your paths straight . I instantly felt this was the Lord sending me a message , to stay with the decision i had made , and continue to trust in Him . I got that bracelet and put it on right away !

On my way home from work to a lonely home , i had to stop for gas . I got a text message from my husband asking me if i was hungry and he invited me to come and eat . He told me he wanted to spend time with me . This was a complete turn around from where he had been . I went and we talked and he has never been so open with his feelings before . He was telling me all the things i had been saying to him before . He said that we COULD save our marriage , and that he wanted to try . It was just going to take time .

This was all the Lords doing .
Thank you Jesus , Praise God !!

I was awestruck ! Still am really LOL

My husband is still not at home , but he is sepnding a few nights here a week and we are going to take things slowly and work them out .
I pray daily , to give thanks and praise to the Lord , and for guidance to be the wife that the Lord wants me to be .

I love my husband , but I will put the Lord first now as I should have always done . He will make me a better wife , and through my actions i will also be able to bring my husband to the Lord .

so there in a not so short story is my testimony .
lol

Praise Jesus
The Lord is great , and through him ALL things are possible

Thank you Lord for all the many blessings I have received through you
Thank you for sending into my life friends and this site and all the things I needed to become Yours .
Amen

Dear sister MiccyinFl

Praise the Lord for your testimony of His abundant and wonderful saving grace.

I love to read people's testimonies it just reaffirms the wonderful love and mercy of our beloved Lord Jesus.

It is truly awesome the way that Jesus speaks to our hearts in order to guide us and draw us to Himself...like the bracelet you describe finding inscribed with Proverbs 3: 5-6. We have an amazing God.

May the Lord bless you and keep you and your family

Julia

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ Romans 8:35

Who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings Ephesians 1:3

Unto you..which believe...He is precious 1 Peter 2:7

Thank you jskm for your reply .I am happy to share my testimony to any that will listen . I have been so filled up lately and barely able to contain myself :)

Amen yes we surely do have an amazing God !

Thank you Lord
Praise Jesus

hey miccy, i told you befor i'll say it again. what a awsome testimony. God bless you miccy...............j

thanks J , ((( big hugs ))) and God Bless you too

Thank you and God bless you for your wonderful testimony, I was crying by the middle, had to stop, pray and thank God and then resume reading.

Thank you Dani for your reply :) May God bless you as well !