Hi there Justin, thank you so much for sharing your experience. I really understand how you feel, because I've been through similar experiences, and I know it's not easy and it's really unpleasant.
Just liking and wanting someone you know you can't have feels horrible, I know.
I think it's great you want to give it all to God, He's the one you should fix your eyes on. Try to spend more time with Him, and I'm sure you will find comfort.
I'm sure this situation will make you grow in a lot of ways, keep trusting God, never lose hope, because He is faithful, He will never let you down, or leave you alone.
The woman that God has stored for you will come eventually, be patient, and prepare yourself so you can be ready when she comes into your life.
Don't waist any minute, live your life fully, and even enjoy this not so nice time of your life. When we are weak is when God can really do His thang in our lives right?
I'll be praying
God bless you!
"Your love is over, is underneath, is inside, it's in between..."