I have said the payer, over, and over but I am still so unsure and still feel
dead inside. I will start to read to bible but a lot of it will make me really angry
so I will stop. I really want to get my faith back. I fell like this is hopeless.

-maire

Hi marie, when you pray to God to forgive your sins you have to believe by faith that He has forgiven you. Acts 16 v 31 says "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved." Then start to read the Bible and ask the Holy Spirit to speak to you as you read. The gospels are a good place to start - read about the life of Jesus. You need to believe His Word.

I agree with sunshine. The Gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John are great books to read and learn about Jesus Christ. You will understand GOD's character through Christ. The love, forgivness and power to make great things happen in your life including faith area.

Ephesians 6:10-18

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age,[a] against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; 18 praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints—

Yeah marie..I understand what you mean completely...You miss feeling close to God...You want desperately to get your faith back....You want to have some sort of relationship with God again...You just feel empty inside because you think you've been living a lie...
I feel like that all the time...Everyone tells me "Keep the faith" "God is there" yet I feel unsure of myself...

diamarie, as I said to marie_777, when you come to God to forgive your sins He will accept you and He will forgive you. John 6:37 "All that the Father gives Me will come to Me, and the one who comes to Me I will by no means cast out." Jesus accepts you and it's up to you to start believing His Word, and walking in it. He will not force you to walk with Him day by day, it's up to you to make that choice. Faith starts as a grain of mustard seed - Matthew 17:20 "So Jesus said to them, “Because of your unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you." All He is asking is that you start believing and your faith will grow. You will draw closer to God as you read His Word. What I am trying to say is start believing God.

Originally Posted by marie_777

I have said the payer, over, and over but I am still so unsure and still feel
dead inside. I will start to read to bible but a lot of it will make me really angry
so I will stop. I really want to get my faith back. I fell like this is hopeless.

-maire

In order to acknowledge GOD & Jesus Christ, we all also need to believe in GOD & in Jesus Christ. How can we have faith if we don't believe? So the question I would like to ask you is; Do you believe in GOD & in Jesus Christ? And if the answer is yes, then maybe try doing some Bible Studying with some one who knows a lot about the Bible. There are also, Bible tools that help out with Bible studying, books that you can find at your nearest Christian Store.

Hey Guys thanks for replying to my post and it nice to know I am not alone
Diamarie
I sometimes believe and other times I don’t really know what to think.
I should read my bible more but it seems to be in vein.

-marie

marie, Reading God's Word is never in vain. Reading God's Word is an essential part of being a Christian - it is one way of God speaking to us and us learning more about Him. It's plain and simple, Jesus Christ died on the cross for you, and rose again the third day. You have to make a choice - to either choose God or reject Him, there is no in between.

heloo,

I just want to encourage you , keep praying all the time and keep reading the bible, coz this is the game of Satan, he wants u to get back to him and leave the grace and joy with god... when u r praying ask lord to protect you in his blood from satan plan :)

god bless you

Marie I know I know I know exactly how you feel, I felt like that for years. When I finally let go of my backslidden life I lived as a christian for a while and then something bad happened in my life and I went right back to sinning ..and I began to question whether or not I was ever saved. I began to doubt and it was a scary thing to go through. I felt like I would never truly be saved and everything in the bible looked as if it contradicted itself and I always secretly questioned God's motives for a lot of things. But one day God revealed to me that I was approaching christianity wrong. I learned to surrender my life to him and truly submit to his will and everything begin to fall in place. He is still revealing things to me in the bible that i never understood, and he's showing me answers to things I had questioned for years. Just be honest with God on how you feel ..a lot of the things that makes you angry, he may just feel you're not ready for the revelation yet. Just be patient and let him guide you. ...Just my input based on what brought me out of doubt. ...oh and dont forget to call Satan a liar :-) I will pray for you