This was a mistake, Am greatful that I have been given enough time to think this through, and now am definately sure without a doubt that am ready to serve but not in Blue colour;) I am sure that this is God's will.
What a humbling and difficult experience it has been for me. .but it was worth it. there is an article i posted about "Others May, You cannot" by --G. D. Watson in the Lounge Forum some time back. How true this article rings in this Journey of mine.
Anyways, thanks to those who inspired me to apply
Remain Blessed, F.