Today I am tired. I don't know what I quite need or want. I have had rheumatoid arthritis for many years. I have done the regime of medicines infusions, alternative medicine. I use to pray daily for healing then after a time I began to accept my conditions. and thought it wasn't God's timing.
Having this condition brought me closer to the Lord. It has changed many things in my life. I am not able to do alot of things I use to, but I focus on what I can do, at times this is challenging.
I do not know if it is healing I need or that is what God wants for me. or just the endurance and strength to carry on with a hope that I still have something to offer to others. I have limitations of what I can do physically.
I was a caregiver uptill last year. When I started that job I was elated because I had found something that I enjoyed and was good at and I really believed that is where I was meant to be. When it was getting more physically painful and difficult to care for the elderly I finally had to quit. my husband advised me that it would be ok financially and he didn't want me to injure myself.
My mind in wandering today I know I need to focus on good things.
I need prayer please. I am really tired today and have pain. Bless you all.
Your friend in Christ