You're 17, bro you are very young to worry about relationships. I understand your feelings and pain but believe me there's plenty of life ahead of you. Don't put any woman or anything for that matter above God. God provides what us best for you. Just trust Him.
“Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.
• Luke 12:27-31